NUMB

If you ask me what I am feeling now..All I can tell you is that I'm feeling numb...Seriously I feel so detached rite now like I'm moving on autopilot...This has left me in such a daze that I even left my purse in my friend's car without even realising it..It didn't start out this way..At first I was angry but not at anyone just at myself..My family and even a colleague at work commented that I'm like so moody lately..

Me and him start out as friends 1st and we became so close tat it was natural for us to go to the next step...It was all fine and happy at first but soon we had to start on the next chapter of our lives which is the working life..That is when everything start to change..He start to become more possesive where he'll get upset each time I went out with my frens and came back late but he knows that before we were together, I specifically told him that I love my freedom and he promised that he won't get upset if I went out with my frens..But you and I all know that promises are made to be broken..

It came to a stage where he'll even msg or call me just to check up on me and to ask where I am...that was the breaking point for me, I hate being checked upon as if i'm some kind of criminal..It feels like he just don't trust me anymore

I know that when relationship starts to fail both parties are at fault..I can't deny that..I know that all this while he's been bugging me to make our relationship official in front of my family(Yup my family doesn't even know that we are a couple, they just think that we are frens) but this doesn't juz involve just me and him..We are from different backgrounds and I'm worried that my parent won't be able to accept him..He took my reluctance to let him meet my parents as a sign that I doesn't care..which is so far away from the truth..

So we both decide that we should take a break from each other to think things through and whether it is best that we stay together or just to remain as frens..But in my heart, I know where this is going to lead..But sometime when you are at a crossroad, you have to pick the road that is best for you even though it is a painful choice to be made...

My Weakness in life

Everyone have their own weaknesses. So I decide to list down the things that makes me goes weak in the knees hehe

So here we go(not in order of merit hehe):

1)Sticky Chewy Chocolate ice cream from Swensen(Each time I have a taste of this, I feel as if I died and went to heaven)

2)Lagsane(my fave food of all time and the weird thing is I love the burnt parts of the lagsane)

3)Ice blended mocha from Coffee bean(The shot of coffee in this could keep me up all night hehe)

4)Hot Macdonald French fries with curry sauce(All i can say is I'm loving it hehe)

5)A smile from a baby(Even if i'm a terrible mood, seeing this will make me smile instantly :))

6)Pink roses(Don't ask me why pink..I myself dunno the ans..juz love it in pink that's all :))

7)Any shirt in that perfect shade of purple(Its so hard to find)

8)LIVERPOOL

9)Chicken rice from Hawa :)(Bring back plenty of good memories everytime I eat this)

10)Carrot cake from Far East Plaza(Yummy!!)

Hehe if you noticed my weakness are mostly food hehe..Does that mean I'm more of a glutton than a material gal? Hmm I dunno wat do u think?

But wait i still haven't tell you all what is my ultimate weakness.

IT'S A SMILE FROM A GUY WITH DIMPLE/DIMPLES!! HEHE...

Go on dun be shy..WANNA TELL ME WHAT'S UR WEAKNESS?? :)

Changes & Strangers

Have you ever wondered about the changes in your life? Whether it had made you a better person or in fact whether there are any significant changes at all in your life? To me, I'm not sure whether the changes in my life have made me into a better person or made me worse(this can only be answered by frens and family who had known me for a long time hehe). But one thing I know is I really hate changes cause it give me feelings of uncertainty. Of coz to some, changes are like new adventures in their life which really is a positive way of thinking. But not for me, I'm pretty happy with the way my life is...until now...There are so many changes in my life that sometime I feel like its too much..Hehe that sound so dramatic..I know that changes is part of life and I know that eventually all relationships need to move on to the next stage. But wat if I'm not ready and I do not want to move on..I don't see anything wrong with that..That doesn't mean that I do not care at all..And that doesn't give u permission to change to someone that i barely know now..Sometimes I wonder..who are u?

Men's hottest Woman & women's hottest man

Hehe..A blog post back to back.Well if you are thinking wat I'm thinking then u are rite...I'm totally absolutely free yesterday & today..As the system is having downtime to be upgraded, I can't do a single thing therefore I'm here to spread my wisdom(or if u wan to put it in another way my nonsense hehe). As u can see from my previous post, i love asking ppl weird ques hehe and from the title you'll know wat ques I asked them and these are the ans they gave me

Men's hottest Woman(based on Hollywood only)
1)Jessica Alba(So many guys give me this ans)


2)Jennifer Love Hewitt


3)Angelina Jolie


4)Catherine Zeta Jones



Women's hottest Man(based on Hollywood only)

1)Johnny Depp


2)Adam Brody


3)Benjamin Bratt


4)Jared Leto


5)Matthew Mcconaughey


I guess you would like to know my ideal man:
Tom Welling from smallville(who can resist that smile rite ;))



Anyway, there is a reason why i did this survey. Interestingly you can see each gal give a different guy to wat they think is hot but for guys, the gals they chose are almost similar don't u think..hehe

Anyways, I came across this article which I think is a very interesting :)
Y dun u guys read it and tell me wat u think?

Men scared of women with perfect figures

Guys & dresses

Hehe you must be wondering wat's the link between guys & dresses rite?? There is a link..Cause guys always go crazy when they see a gal wearing a dress hehe...This actually happened to me..I had one of those rare ocassions(my company D & D) where I had to wear a dress..and you can't imagine how many compliments I received after ppl saw me wearing that dress..Hehe it was kinda hilarious to me.. Cause i am still me the person they see everyday but its just that I'm wearing a dress...hehe

There's even one conversation that when like this(funny to me lah but mayb not to you hehe):
Guy:Wah u look so pretty today..
Me: huh?where got?No lah i'm juz wearing a dress
Guy:Yeah I know but u look so different from usual
Me: of coz lah I'm wearing a dress..all girls look pretty in a dress
Guy: No lah not all..its juz tat u can carry the dress well
Me: Erm..ok thanks for the compliment I guess..(hehe at that point I had no idea what he's talking abt)

Even my "fren" start to treat me differently after he saw me in that dress. He used to be kinda rough which is I'm used to but now he treat me so manja hehe..I tink he finally saw me as a gal and tat i'm not just one of the guys hehe..He told me I shld wear dresses more often..I was like do u know how suffering it is to be in a dress? When u wear a dress, u need to complement it in heels..And do u know how torturing it is to be in heels...Of coz my fren juz laugh and say but you'll look nicer wat hehe(this is the 1st ever compliment frm him)..I was quite shocked at that point..hehe can't believe he juz say tat..

Mayb u shld check out the dress I'm wearing that make guys go crazy but for me I still look like me but juz in a dress




p/s: anyway the D & D sucks...I suffered wearing a dress for nothing hehe