Sundays are meant for Weddings

For those who knows me well, they will know not to ask me out on Sundays cause i would 95% say no..Hehe..Normally, this would be automatically understood until one fine day, this question was brought to me..

Are you sure that you really have to go to weddings on almost every sunday of the month?

Sadly my answer is yes..its not that i'm anti-weddings but if you went to one malay wedding before then you have been to them all cause basically its all the same hehe[This is not meant to be racist just a tongue in cheek observation ;P].

I find this next question really hilarious

Innocently, my friend remarked "Wow then you must have many relatives.."

I couldn't stop laughing when I heard it..

So I told my friend "To be honest, most of the time that I go to the wedding, I don't even know the bride/groom. I go there just for the food hehe"

Most of the weddings I went to are friends of a friend of my parents..My mum have no one to accompany her to these weddings and of course I'm forced to be her escort..

My observations after going to so many weddings, one question is sure to be asked by strangers whom I have just met "when am I getting married?/When it's my turn to get married"

And this seem to be the basic conversation starter at most weddings hehe. For most malays, this is quite normaly but for others, it is kinda shocking to hear hehe

So how do you ans this question to a complete stranger?

Just ans politely with a smile "Blum ada jodoh lagi Cik". Translation: "Haven't found the right one yet"

Which is the standard answer given by most youngsters at weddings.

Actually weddings is a good way to immerse yourself and experience different cultures.

And again in my tongue in cheek observation of other cultures weddings which I have been to:

Malay: Noisy, nosey, free all u can eat buffet[hehe if you are not pai seh to take 2nd helpings] and Karaoke(if you are brave enough to show ppl your hidden singing talents)

Chinese: Boring(imagine listening to the priest preaching for almost 1 hr before it came to the "I do") but u get to eat good food cause the reception is normally held in hotels/country club and you get to see the bride & groom change into many different outfits ;)

Indian: Quite rowdy (especially when some guests had too much to drink) ;) and if they serve the food buffet style then you have to queue for the food cause the wedding starts only when every one have been seated. It is also quite fun cause normally the bride and groom will get sabo by their friends/family members ;)

This is not to say that all malay, chinese, indian weddings are like what I describe above. These are just the weddings that I have experienced ;)

Thank God for the friends that I have

Do you know what it takes to really know someone? Its really simple..Just recall all the times that you are being a bitch/jerk/upset/depressed/angry and the person who is always there with you during those times..

Yup that is the person who knows you well and that is truly the person that you can depend on..Everyone wears a mask so when you are not in a good mood, that is normally the time when you expose your real self cause you just won't bother to hide anymore[Unless you are the type of person who is always in bad mood then this doesn't apply to you ;)].

I am really thankful that I have friends that I could depend on..Friends who meets me willingly in the early hours of the morning just cause I said I need someone to talk to..Friends who are willing to be blunt so that I wouldn't deceive myself and allow me to face the cold hard truth. Friends that I could cry on their shoulders and they wouldn't think that I'm being drama queen/cry baby..

Thank God for the friends that I have..

Empty the full cup and you'll be free

Someone once said to me
Empty the full cup and you'll be free
Memories please leave
and let me be in peace

Albert from Hitch once said
If being miserable is the only way to stay connected
then being miserable is who I'm supposed to be
but is that the right way to go
Is that the life I'm supposed to live

Too tired to think
Everything is now so confusing
but that phrase keep popping
Empty the full cup and you'll be free

LIVERPOOL 1 CHELSEA 1

HOW UTTERLY HORRIBLY UNBELIEVABLE!! I was just counting down the seconds when this happened:



I think all Liverpool fans were cursing RIISE when this happened me included..I just so couldn't believe it..Why use your head when u can kick the ball and let it be out of play..WHY!!

The Hero which help us defeat Barca had just became the villian..And Liverpool was playing great and they really deserve to win this match..But well what can I say..nothing is set in stone in football and absolutely anything can happen as this has proved..But all is not lost, we still have the 2nd leg at Stamford bridge..

I hope that MAN U will do us a favour and make the Chelsea players run around in circles and tire them out so that we'll could take advantage of their tiredness..wishful thinking i know..but well i just have to take what i can get..

HOW UTTERLY HORRIBLY UNBELIEVABLE!!

YNWA

Kekasih Gelapku=> My dark sweetheart

Kekasih Gelapku=> My dark sweetheart

Hehe the english translation sounds a bit funny but the song is great. You see, i rarely listen to Malay songs so if a malay song managed to grab my attention then it is really that good..Actually this song is a typical jiwang(sentimental) malay song which I don't really love but the lyrics to the song is so super sad and deep. From the title itself, you definitely won't be able to guess what the song is about but as you listen on..You'll find yourself captivated by it..At least that's what happened to me..

Below are the lyrics of the song which made me fell in love with it once I heard it cause its so true :)

[chorus]Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

English Translation:
[Chorus]I'll love you more than anything
Even though nobody else knows about it
I love you to the deepest depth of my heart
Even though, you are just my dark sweetheart.


I know that I won't always be there for you
Whenever you are misssing me
I know that I won't be able to give you plenty of time in my life.

Believe that you are my love
that i have been searching for in my life
And only to you, I'll give the scraps of my love
for a long time in my life

Repeat chorus

So as you can see what I love about this song is that its is not promising the impossible but just what a man is able to give to his gal..and I think that is so much better that a man who promised you the heaven and earth but is not able to deliver..

Enjoy the song and tell me what you think ;)

Song lyrics | Kekasih Gelapku lyrics

A man out there is really proud to call me his gal

It's a funny story really...I was just minding my own business in the train when my "fren" called and was really excited about something..The train was going underground and due to poor reception, I can't really hear wat he was saying..IT actually sounded like he was under water hehe..I finally told him to slow down and take a deep breath cause he is making no sense at all to me..

He told me that he saw my letter in the NEW PAPER..actually it was his fren who was reading the paper and he accidentally noticed my name..and was pointing at that new paper saying that's my girl name..He was so super excited about it and keep pointing it out to all his colleague...Hehe I think actually he expects me to be as excited as him but i guess my reaction was pretty disappointing..I just went "is it?Hmm ok i'll buy the NEW PAPER later" He asked how come I'm not excited about this so I told him "Actually, the NEW PAPER published my letters many times before already hehe". Surprisingly to me, he became quite upset that I didn't share that with him. He said if he knew earlier, he'll collect all the letters and keep it as momentos..

I knew that he is 110% not interested in football cause his definition of football: 11 men chasing after one ball.How ridiculous is that? But him being him, he'll always come along with me whenever I have to watch a football match outside.(His excuse not safe for a girl to be at a bar/kopitiam full of men alone, actually I just think that he's jealous.) and always listen(in this case pretend to listen) whenever I need to vent about Liverpool. So to me, this is a very small thing that I dun think I want to "burden" him with it and that I dun think he's interested in anyway. But I guess I was wrong..Hmm you learn something new every day.

KOP newest HERO..

Learn the song by heart cause we are going to sing the song a lot..hehe

FERNANDO TORRES!! LIVERPOOL NO. 9!

YNWA..

This song is currently my favourite song..Why? because it has a very simple melody with meaningful lyrics..Sometimes that is all a classic song needs to be everlasting cause these kind of songs bring back the good memories whenever you hear the song ;) Well tat's my opinion only hehe..But well just listen to the song, sit back, enjoy and let the good memories roll ;)

CONTENTMENT

CONTENTMENT
some mistake it as lack of excitement
some mistake it as the ultimate boredom
some mistake it for sheer laziness

CONTENTMENT
everyone look everywhere it
everyone work hard for it
everyone really wish for it

CONTENTMENT
it is right there all along
if you know wat you are looking for
but it is human nature to want more
And the search for contentment never stops
So tell me now who is at fault?

ME a relationship Guru?

Its kinda weird but I recently noticed that many of my frens started coming to me for relationship advice..hehe Not to say that I'm an expert but I do have an interest in relationship stuff and always love reading about it (Books like Women from venus and Men are from Mars). That's where most of my poems are inspired from.. But I guess most of them came to me, more for a listening ear rather than advice..Why? I dunno maybe because I never break the carnal rule to listening which is not to share what you have just heard unless the person involved allow you to do so..

I had plenty of practice with my sisters..heehe i have kept lots of their secrets..So mayb that y it is like second nature to me to keep secrets and ppl feel safe as they know that what they are about to tell me will stay with me..

But lately, few of my frens had came to me with well, wat else but problems with their guys..And this was days after Valentine's day..I dun get why do guys these days do not know how to appreciate what they have and what do they actually want from their partners... I'm not here to judge but I feel like we are in the 21st century not in ancient times where men is always right..Ladies should stand up for themselves and made known of their unhappiness instead of keeping quiet...

Sometime I feel that couples nowadays really lack in communication..

I will sometimes ask my frens, what do they normally talk about with their partners when they go out..And the shocking answers is nothing much, talk abt the movie that they juz watch and wat to eat for dinner[This is a typical date in S'pore if u guys dunno]. I find that is so hard to believe because to me, conversation is key in a relationship if not, then how do u let the other party know how u are feeling..

That's y I always advise my frens who are facing relationship problems to talk it out and not to sugarcoat things..If u are not happy with something small, tell him/her immediately cause if you keep it to yourselves, that little unhappiness will grow to hate and that is how relationship fails..If u tell him/her at least they'll know the problem and try to change..OR worst case scenario, u tell him/her abt it and he/she still refuse to change, then at least u can say that you have given them a chance but it's still not working out..But if you both keep quiet and without knowing how each other is feeling and the relationship break down, u will somehow feel as if u are not given the chance to know why it failed and if there's something that you could have done to save it..

I also always believe that you should not stop being friends just because you guys are together..Being friends, allow u to tease each other without hurting each other feelings..Have u ever noticed how u might started out teasing/flirting with each other as friends and as soon as you guys become a couple, the teasing stops cause nobody ever bothers to make an effort any more..

So that is kinda my advice to my friends whenever they are talking abt their relationship problems but of course not all relationship is the same but they are definitely similar..

So just say you are angry when u are angry and keep flirting/teasing each other even though you are already a couple and maybe just maybe you'll built something to last ;)

Delaila here signing off ;)

Liverpool 1 Barnsley 2

The Results says it all

cause right now i'm utterly speechless...

I can't even scream out my frustrations when it happened cause i was at a public place..

If I'm at home, I'll be spewing out words that a good girl like me shouldn't say...and my dear dad will be spewing along with me..

IT IS SO HEART BREAKING TO BE A LIVERPOOL FAN..

BUT THERE'S JUST ONE COMFORT TO THIS.. AT LEAST MY HEART IS NOT BREAKING ALONE

KEEP THE FAITH GUYS..YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE...

West Ham 1 Liverpool 0 Just one word- Disappointment

I really don't get this..What in hell is Liverpool doing? To concede a penalty at the final min is complete bullshit..Liverpool is no longer the same team as before..it seems like they have lost their spirit...

I've been keeping quiet lately about the way Liverpool is playing..I even kept quiet when they played like shit[especially the defence] against some non league club that is made up of part-timers..But seriously, this is the final straw..I want the old Liverpool back..I want the old Liverpool who fight for every ball and never give up..I want the old Liverpool who might lost but kept their fighting spirit. I want the old Liverpool who is proud to wear their Liverpool shirt and truly feel the words to "You'll never walk alone".

I JUST WANT MY OLD LIVERPOOL BACK!!

West Ham 1 Liverpool 0Just one word- Disappointment

Me in the eyes of other people...

I had a revelation recently.. me and my close friends[You guys know who you are] did a little heart to heart talk..When I say heart to heart, it really is..WE talked about all our fears, our dreams..Cause I guess right now we are all at a junction in life where we have to make a choice about going after our dreams or facing reality...A friend of mine is really facing this issue where she have to make a choice...So we start disscussing about the pro and cons of the decision needed to be made. But me being the cynic, I started blasting at her with all the cons..That's when She laughed and told me that is so typical you...always starting the negatives..Feeling quite shocked when she said that, I told her really, that is how you think of me..

But looking back(this is called reflecting), I do realised that I do look at the worst case scenario first every time a decision has to be made..To me it is a way of being prepared and having plan B. And seriously, I am a firm believer of plan B and being prepared when things go wrong. So the only way I can have get a solution when things go wrong is to mentally thinking out the worst case scenario and finding the solution to that scenario...I know that not all the decision I made will turn to be the worst case scenario but I somehow feel quite comforted at the thought that I had gone through the worst case scenario in my head and I know what to do if it happened..I guess that makes me less of a risk taker but I just don't like risks hehe...

And I do admit that whenever ppl come to me with their problem or needing advise, I'll always begin with the the cons first..because I believe problems are based on a bad and good sides and we always need to take a look at both side before we can come at a solution. But human nature will always be focused more on the good side of things rather than on the bad side..so that is where I come in, informing my frens on the bad side of their decision to have a clearer picture in their head..and if they believe that they could handle the bad side of the decision then they should go ahead with the decisions that they have decided..

Anyways going back to my friends, I realised what true friends I have cause as they say true friends/soulmates are people who knows all abbout your flaws and yet they love you anyways..So guys thanks for being my true friends and trust me I'll always be yours :D

New Year's Resolutions=> so not me..

Hehe I know that it is kinda too late to talk about New Year resolution and stuff but since it is still January..I see no harm in talking about it...

You see I have never made new Year resolution and won't ever make one..But suprisingly this has shocked a few people including my manager who had harmlessly asked me about my resolution...

My theory is this why wait until a new year to make a resolution..Why can't we just make up resolutions as we go on in life.Isn't it more logical to make up resolution in accordance with wat you are facing right now instead of making one in the new year..

I know that some people might argue that New Year resolutions are for us to look back and see what improvement that can be made the next year..But that is kinda of silly don't you think... waiting until the end of the year to do a reflection on yourself..Its like doing nothing about yourself for the whole year and suddenly when the end of the year came, u start to look back on ways u could improve urselve better...So weird hehe...

I wish that above is the answer I have given to my manager when she asked me that ques but I was very surprised by her question that nothing came to mind..I just told her that there's no point making one cause most people say that it is meant to be broken hehe..So very the lame and Cliche...I think I lost a few brain cells when I said that hehe...

So people, there's no harm making New Year's resolution but just don't ask about my New Year's resolution cause I might lose out few more brain cells trying to answer that question ;P

Liverpool 0 Manchester United 1

As expected, Man U won against Liverpool

Well what do u expect from team which well rested against a team which had to travel miles away for a must win match..I knew from the start that fatigue will most definitely play a part and it's a good result if Liverpool managed a draw..But we lost..It doesn't matter..Most people are saying that Liverpool will be out of the Title race etc..To these people, all I can say is WHATEVER!!..You guys have been saying that since we had the drawn matches phase..But guess what we still have a game in hand and nothing is impossible..Teams which look invincible now might crumbles once the African Nation Cup comes along...Points will definitely be dropped..And most importantly, the 4 team ahead of liverpool rite now, have not had a real team crisis yet which Liverpool had gone through...

I am not going to say that Liverpool is going to win the Premiership this season..all I am saying that It is a possibility..So I really hate those guys who keep saying that Liverpool had nothing else to play for this season...Yeah rite..We got to the knock out stage when you ruled us out and maybe bcause u ruled us out now for the premiership..It might give us more determination to win it..

Anyways, I seem to start a tradition where I would be wearing a Liverpool shirt or Jersey whenever Liverpool lost[which won't be often I hope]..So I decided to wear my Liverpool shirt to the office today[my b'day gift from my colleagues :)], and guess what.. the guys in the office are being really nice to me about Liverpool losing hehe maybe they are scared that I might burst into tears if they teased me too much hehe[Benefit of being a girl ;), if its one of the guys(2 gooners & 1 red devil), they surely get it more worse than me]

Just an ordinary day out??

Two couples seen going out together at Vivocity..Looks and sounds ordinary enough...Well guess what..looks can be deceiving..Hehe very melodramatic..On sunday, was the 1st outing me and "him" had just as frens with my sister and her BF acting as lamposts hehe..[Sorry sis :)]..It was familiar yet strange at the same time..Most of the time, we chatted like normal but sometimes when we saw something that might trigger our memories in the times when we were together it got weird..and its up to my sister to fill up the silence...This is the reason I sometimes feel that this wouldn't work..It just doesn't feel the same..and its hard cause this had to be done behind my parents back and had to be with a group when going out with him so it wouldn't be so obvious..But with "him" being "him", he managed to steer my thoughts from all those negatives things.

Somebody asked me what do I love about him:

That is such a hard question to answer because there's so many answers to that question:

But if there's one thing I love about him:

His ability to know what I'm thinking and feeling and just knows how to make me feel better without me telling him..

Liverpool unbeaten run halted by Reading

Reading 3 Liverpool 1

That was seriously the final score for this match..Unbelievable right..Well believe it..After that match, i didn't know whether to cry or to scream[Hehe maybe i should do both]. The tactic were wrong from the start and when I saw Momo Sissoko and that rookie guy[Hobbs something] in the line up, I had a sinking feeling in my stomach..I don't understand why Rafa would not utilised all the talents that he has on the bench..Instead He placed Voronin & Gerrard in position where they couldn't thrive when he has Kewell, Babel and Lucas Leiva..I have always believed in Rafa but this time, his tactics really baffled me. I mean I can understand his position on resting players for the important matches on Marseille & Man u later. But isn't it more logical to put out ur best players on a pitch, go all out to win in the 1st half and start to rest players when we are WINNING..But not in Rafa's mind, I guess this guy's mind didn't work logically as He did the direct opposite by taking off Torres[I don't mind him being off cause he looked slightly injured], Carragher[Leaving Hyppia(old) & Hobbs(too new), and that's when the defence start to crumble] & GERRARD[What was RAFA thinking!!]. And when I heard that, Arsenal also lost against Middlebrough, I seriously did not know whether to be mad or relieved. Mad because this was our chance to close up the gap and we blew it or relieved that at least Arsenal is still within our reach..But what I can say is that I will be truly pissed off, If Arsenal won that match...

Of course me being me, I decided to wear my Liverpool jersey on Sun while being out with my friends just to show my support for liverpool..It doesn't matter that I got teased by strangers and of couse my friends.. me being a girl and wearing a Liverpool shirt and Liverpool losing all that crap..But the weird thing is I saw many guys wearing the Liverpool jersey too..WE just smiled at each other knowing that Win or Lose..WE'LL NEVER WALK ALONE :)

Liverpool vs Porto

Sorry about not writing about liverpool lately. Been bz with all the little crisis in my life...Anyway, back to the topic...If u guys noticed, I only start writing about liverpool matches when it start to get crucial..This is because I am only willing to have 2 or 3 hours of sleep to watch a match when it is important or I know it's going to be an exciting match...And the Liverpool vs Porto match is really important because Liverpool will be out of Champions League if they lose and because Liverpool have been really erratic in Euro, I was worried that this was going to be the last match in Europe for Liverpool[IF they lose I think nobody would care about the last match ]. But fortunately the REDS prove me wrong..and god how I love being wrong this time :)

Liverpool started the match enthuastically with both drive and determination. They were rewarded when TORRES managed to get a goal with a header while being completely unmarked by the Porto defence from a classic Gerrard's corner.[I was thinking how could any defence allow a 26 million pound worth of player be completely unmarked]. But their loss was our gain and from then on Liverpool completely control the game until 15 min before half time when Porto gave Liverpool a taste of their own medicine.

Przemyslaw Kazmierczak's cross floated beautifully into the box and Arbeloa completely misread the flight allowing Lopez to head home the equaliser. After that goal, confidence began to grow in the Porto players as they got the chance to be in the lead twice but was denied due to poor finishing.

I was quite relieved when the half time whistle was blown by the Ref cause I felt that Porto was really very close to get the winning goal.

At half time, Liverpool was not able to get their rhythm and lost control the game. I was truly frustrated at this time cause they were passing aimlessly and keep losing possession of the ball and I heard the Marseille had equalised against Bestika. [I was like Come on REDS you can do it and I was really worried that Liverpool was going to be the 2nd England]

But I guess I had nothing to worry about as Liverpool managed to get 3 goals in a space of 20 mins[A wonderful goal by TORRES yet again with Arbeloa making amends by providing the assist, a penalty by Gerrard and a goal by Peter Crouch]

All in all, I think the match had more positives than negatives as they started the game great but lost their focus and rhythm in the 2nd half and still was able to get a result. The game became so much livelier when Harry Kewell came on and this is another positive as we now have another player who could make a difference in a game when we needed it[Another player was of course Crouch]. Another positive Marseille lost against Bestika and this provide a great chance for Liverpool. But I sure hope that Liverpool won't do an England.

My Birthday Wish list

Feeling bored at work with nothing to do and with my birthday coming up(For the benefit of those who don't know, its on 26 Nov), I decided to create a birthday wish list for all those people who had no idea on what to buy for my B'day hehe ;)

1) Nokia 5310 XpressMusic :I've been wanting a slim HP which have good MP3 player and stereo cause for me that is the must-have function in my HP hehe so when this HP was launched, it was seriously like my dream HP..I would bought it immediately if its not out of my budget now.

2)Sony PSP with FiFa street 2: So that I do not have to fight with my Bro whenever I wanna play FiFa street 2 hehe I'm addicted to that game :)

3)Swensen Ice cream cake(Sticky chewy chocolate flavour): I been wanting to try ice cream cake since forever and maybe this year my wish will come true ;)

4)Liverpool Jersery from the away and european kit(in ladies size pls): I already have the home jersey. I just need the away and european jersey for a complete set ;)

5)To have a good time this sat as my wonderful frens have planned a surprise to celebrate my birthday..I don't even know what they are planning but I sure appreciate their efforts. And I absolutely love surprises but pleasant ones only of course ;)