Beauty vs Cute

Most people impressions when they 1st saw me is You're so cute(which according to my "fren": cute = ugly but adorable). SO whenever ppl call me that i will always say thanks with a smile..Y? because it is true..I rather be ugly but adorable rather than pretty but self-centred =P Its not that I am stereotyping all pretty gals are like that but its based on majority and my life experience hehe..I know 1st hand cause i been living with 2 pretty gals in the whole duration of my life..Its a miracle that I do not have self esteem issues...

One thing about pretty gals is that they expect everyone to cater for them and to solve their problems for them just by flashing their smiles..I guess that this is just one of the side effects of being pretty I guess..As I have said earlier, this is based on living in the shadows of 2 pretty sisters:)

So what is the side effects of being cute? Well you tend to care too much about other people that you tend to forget to care about your own self..This personality trait was observed by non other than my "fren". He always told me why do you care about others so much..Just let them be..they are all adult, they can solve their own problem..But the problem is if someone come to me with a problem, I always try to think up ways to solve the problem that sometimes I stress myself up..hehe..I just can't help it..

But guys dun worry you can just come up to me with your probs, i love hearing ppl problem and solving it..Mayb i just like solving problem but at the end of the day, i realise that some problems are really out of my league and all I can offer is a listening ear...which is good enough I hope :)

Back to the future

Well I was super-bored at work and got nothing to do as the system is having freakin' issues yet again...I dunno what's up with the system this month...it seem to be having issues every day and its affecting my freakin' catalogs haiz..OK so back to the topic..I was surfing the youtube trying to find any video that catches my eye and I saw this video showing the scene where Micheal J Fox was playing the Johnny B Goode song...Man..I love this scene from the movie...IN FACT, I LOVE ALL THE SCENES FROM THIS MOVIE..Its one of my fave movie from all times cause you'll never get tired watching it(its like those Bujang Lapok movies hehe) but its also could be due to the fact that I had a little crush on Micheal J Fox(He's kinda cute :)) after the 1st time I watch the movie hehe

Anyways..what I like most about this scene is of course the sound from the guitar..I love any songs with melodious guitar rifts :)

Well then..enjoy the video and listen carefully to the guitar..Its out of this world ;)

Thinking of thoughts that I shouldn't have

I don't know what is going on lately in my life..Everything seem to be going wrong..ME and HIM just can't seem to communicate any more..the more we try, the worse it become..Every words said are analysed and in the end the conclusion reached were that those words were meant to hurt..Have we reached the end of the road..is this truly the end..it hurts me a lot to say this but in a relationship, there is no point, if trust is replaced by suspicions and words are longer said to please but to hurt..I can't even pin-point the reason that cause everything to change..One day we were just like a normal couple and the next thing I know we are saying things and bringing up the past to hurt each other..WHY???

We have overcome so much to be together and just to throw it away like thrash is so painful...Maybe to you what we have meant nothing...Most people don't even believe that we having this crisis now..On the surface we always look like the perfect couple mayb that is the reason why this is happening now..Mayb we just look too perfect together hiding our displeasure at each other and saving it up until it exploded now..I just don't know what to do now..

Oh my god, I can't believe that I'm thinking about this..Mayb we should take a break from each other..

A night of perseverance & triumph

A night of perseverance & triumph that is how I will describe the Champions League Final..AC Milan persevered and they triumph..Yup sound like Liverpool rite but no..this time Liverpool was dominating the game and they could finish of the game in the 1/2 half where shots after shots are wasted by Liverpool..That is why they have no one to blame but themselves..what I'm feeling now..DISAPPOINTED..not really cause they played hard, brought the game to Milan and did their best..I really appreciate the REDS for that and I applaud them...UPSET..DEFINITELY!!because they played better than Milan..But I guess it is fated that it is AC Milan time to shine..Well life is unfair but football is cruelly unfair I guess..Its hard to accept when we lose by a fluke goal & by a single lapse of concentration...Well the final whistle has been blown(unfairly again as it was blown before the extra time was up) and the curtain of the Champions League Final has been drawn..AC Milan is the deserving CHAMPIONS for taking whatever few chances they had and making full use of it..But guess what it's only a loan..We will be coming back for it :)

EPL has ended

So now official EPL has ended...what is left to look forward to is the FA Cup final(which I don't want either team to win it so I won't really be looking forward to this match) & the Champion league final which I want both teams to win it so I'm in a serious dilemma but of course i'm leaning more towards Liverpool cause this team is the only one my heart. I really admire AC Milan team though not because they made Man U look like a schoolboy team but I think that they are the only team that deserve to be in the final with Liverpool hehe :).

My prediction for the FA Cup final..I only decide on chelsea because it might save Jose Mourinho job and it will stop those infuriating Man U fans bragging about winning the double..it is already bad enough that they already won the EPL(But they deserve to win it though, they played really briliantlly this season). Although I hate Chelsea to the core hehe(they are the new Man U) but I absolutely adore Jose..He's such an interesting coach and without him EPL post match conference will be so boring...

My bold prediction for the Champion league Final: LIVERPOOL TO WIN IT as a true Red I will never wish for my beloved team opponent to win it but of coz if i'm being honest AC Milan have a higher chance of winning it just look at the quality players they have..nut I dun mind Liverpool being the underdogs..it seem like we just perform better when we had the underdog label tag to us ;)


SO COME REDS!!RELIVE ISTANBUL..YNWA!!

Just for inspiration..check out the video below. :D

Liverpool vs Milan Documentary
Uploaded by drogballs

Truly one hell of a week!!

Oh my god! there is so much action and drama going last week on planet football. Actually I intend to write my opinions right after the champions League matches but I decide to wait untill after the EPL matches were played...And my gut instinct was truly on the spot...since there's so much drama that happened during the chase of the Premiership trophy...

But 1st let's start with the Championship league:

AC MILAN VS MAN U

Man!what a roller coaster ride of a match!!When i was watching this match at 1st i was quite annoyed when Ronaldo(or is it own goal by DIDA??) scored because AC Milan gave away a very stupid goal(must be Man U bomoh at work again cause the AC milan players looks like they are in a slumber hehe)..but the spell was broken by my very own real life Prince Charming KAKA(hehe my wishful thinking only) when he took advantage of a napping Man U defence to score an equaliser..(I was able to breathe much better after that goal). But KAKA brilliance was not over, in the 37th min, KAKA manage to get past 2 of Man U defenders as Heinze & Evra get in each other way to allow KAKA to calmly slot the lead past Van Der Sar.(I was like so happy when KAKA scored that goal cause he was showcasing his brilliance once again & I was actually laughing at how KAKA managed to make 2 good defenders look like a pair of clowns during the replay)I was actually thinking this is it for Man U but haiz..it was not meant to be..Man U was truly the King of Comeback this season..Gustusso exit from the from the match in the second half seem to breathe life into the Man U midfield which seem to be lifeless during the 1st half..An equaliser and a last min goal from Rooney seal the deal in the second half and MAN U bring back with them an advantage when they meet AC Milan in the San Siro for the 2nd Leg..



CHELSEA vs LIVERPOOL
This match is completely the polar opposite of the AC Milan vs Man U match..It starts out real slow and steady, not fast & furious as the AC Milan & Man U match. This is probably due to the fact that Liverpool & Chelsea had meet each other so many times that they were able to read each other moves well.(It could also be because there wasn't enough effort put in by Liverpool during the match. I was so mad at them for playing this game so poorly). Joe Cole's goal at the 29 min was the only goal but Liverpool was lucky not to concede more(luckily Reina was in top form Phew..)Poor me kena teased by my collegues, I got no choice but to accept it cause really I feel Liverpool deserve the loss..They just did not played good enough against Chelsea..Luckily its just 1 goal deficit and it is still possible for Liverpool to claw their way to the final.



Back to the EPL:

EVERTON vs MAN U
King of Comeback strikes again(in fact I think they should be proclaimed as Master of Comeback) & Wayne Rooney saves the day once again..I think these were the headlines screaming out in the papers after this pulsating & heart-thumping match. I actually kept my eye on both the Man U and Chelsea matches that night but it seem to me that the Man U match was more exciting right from the start. Everton leads with two goals and by now you should know the end of the story whenever Man U is trailing behind..But in this case it was Everton who gifted 2 goals to Man U.(A colossal mistake by the Everton Keeper & and an own goal ironically by ex-man U player Phil Neville..[I wonder how Gary Neville thank his brother for the goal heehe mayb a share of the EPL trophy prize $$]). After being on level terms, u might think that Sir Alex might rest some players for the Champions League game but no sir, not the man they called "the hairdryer", he bring on Christiano Ronaldo and that increased the tempo of the game as Man U search for a winner...And you won't expect it to be anybody else but Rooney to find that winning goal..Everton having a flying start to the match seem to have given up after Rooney's goal and it is before long that Everton concede another goal to a promising young Man U talent(Eagles). With Chelsea held to a draw by Bolton, Man U celebrated as if they already won the title at the final whistle(perhaps to Chelsea fans, it was tad too early).What's interesting for me is to watch the different expressions that shows on Sir Alex Ferguson face's through the match from the time Man U was trailing(where his chewing gum bear the brunt of his frustration and watching his face getting redder by the minute hehee) to the time when Man U was leading. His expessions itself make the match interesting to watch (heehe to me lah as always, I'm always trying to find the humourous side of football ;))

It's gonna be one hell of a week :D

It's gonna be one hell of a week(FOR FOOTBALL FANS)!!!

1st up we have the Champions League semi finals.. One of the POSTMAN questions is EPL the best league in the world? Most ppl said yes but there are some who says no...I am one of them who said no cause to me Champions League is the best league in the world hehehe...I know..I know..most of u are protesting already that the Champions League is not really a league wat..Yup its true but it is the only league that features the best clubs in EUROPE where most of the best players are playing ;)






MAN U vs AC MILAN
This match is going to be mouth watering cause it is pitting 2 of the current best players against each other...You should know who I'm talking abt..of coz it's KAKA and Ronaldo..And also personally FOR ME, it is against the team that I like(AC MILAN[only because of KAKA hehe]) and a team that I'm neutral abt(MAN U[its true lah..why do ppl always expect Liverpool fan to hate Man U?!?!])..So who will Triumph?
Will the 7-1 trashing from MAN U to AS ROMA will be on AC Milan minds? OR will the MAN U allow the Premiership chase distract them from their Champion League dreams??






LIVERPOOL vs CHELSEA
This match is all about personal vendettas that both clubs have against each other..For Chelsea, its all about exacting revenge to Liverpool for kicking them out of the 2005 Champions League through a "ghost goal" as per Mourinho description of the goal that kicked them out, brought Liverpool to the final and eventually winning the Champions League on that incredible night in Istanbul(a night that i am so thankful that i'm able to experience it in my lifetime[although just at home on TV] hehe). For Liverpool, it's all about proving to Chelsea and the world that the "ghost goal" and winning the 2005 Champions League was not a fluke. To prove that thay are the best in EUROPE (although they seriously suck in the EPL hehe[please ah only I can say that abt Liverpool]). So will Chelsea's desire for revenge will be thrown right back on their faces and be their stumbling block to the Champions League Final that ended their (im)possible quadraple dream?(I'm praying that it will happen hehe) OR will Liverpool prove their worth and show to the world that we are truly the Kings of Europe?(I don't know what more we need to prove cause we already won it 5 times ;P)

Enjoy the ride on the rollercoaster called CHAMPIONS LEAGUE which will make you feel as if you are at the top of the world OR plunge you into the world of despair(Wow so dramatic hehe but that is how i really feel when i watch the champions league). Its MAKE IT or BREAK IT TIME!!

THANKS EVERYONE!! :)

I had so many of my friends calling me up and smsing asking how I am doing when I post up my poems in my blog. I know my poems are kinda depressing but that doesn't not mean that I'm feeling sad right now Or that I just broke up with someone. The poems I wrote are just my inspirations which are derived from past experiences, my frens experiences or my take on how ppl feel when they are in that situation..and since many ppl were asking me wat those poems mean and what inspire me to write these poems..ok..ok I tell you

1st poem: Tears

This poem was inspired by my best fren experience who kinda being led on by this idiotic guy who refuse to go to the next stage of the relationship. I mean they have been going out for months and all this while it was my fren who have been asking him out and "wearing the pants in this relationship" the guy didn't even do a thing..haiz..I was so angry with this idiot guy that it inspired me this poem. :) [see got nothing to do with me :)]


2nd poem: Perfect me/Ordinary me

I got an idea about this poem when my "fren" commented about my attire and how i could look better if I dress up. I was like "wat u mean by that" and I never complain when u don't comb your hair or never iron your clothes & since when do you care about this superficial stuff. I guess ppl does change when they are in different environment(since me & him are working now and him being surrounded by all those made up "pretty gals"). I was so mad and upset when he say that cause I was feeling as if I'm not good enough for him now..haiz..so I vented my anger and frustration on in this poem:) [ok this got something to do with me but actually don't all gals/guys have experience this before with their other half ;P]


3rd poem: The One

hehe everyone thought I broke up with someone when they read this poem maybe due to the 2nd poem heehe very misleading eh..actually no lah..its just me remembering the past...Cause the feelings that i felt after writing the second poem made me remember my 1st ever love..I feel that it was funny that events that happens long time ago still have such big effect on me now and that I'm still not free from those memories which I have been trying hard to forget and i can still feel the hurt I felt from those days haiz...Well no one can ever forget their 1st love. But its true when i was in love for the 1st time, all the poems I wrote have happy endings but rite now I guess after reading the poems that i wrote earlier, most poems are about betrayal..I dunno why..Maybe I have become a cynical and more realist person..someone who no longer believe in words of love..[OK lah i admit this poem got 100% to do with me but believe me,I'm over it & I am perfectly happy with the way that I am now :)]

So thanks everyone for caring and i hope that these will answer all your questions regarding my poems :)

LIVERPOOL vs CHELSEA IN THE SEMI YET AGAIN

hAIZ..looks like we are going to Stamford Bridge yet again..It really sucks man..I was hoping to meet Valencia who was known as the spanish version of Liverpool..(Hehe I was hoping to see if we can beat a team with similar style of play)...But I guess my dream was not meant to be...So well we are meeting Chelsea, a team that is all about individual brilliance, vs US, a team that work hard together. I hate it when we meet this kind of team cause it just take one person to be at the right place at the right time for Liverpool to lose. This have happened plenty of times before(remember Man U). So I'm just crossing my fingers that Chelsea's luck have run out and that the liverpool team will play as if it is the Champions League Final.

I'm also hoping that AC Milan will knock out Man U so that Man U fans will not be able to gloat and so that it will be another spectacular final with AC MILAN(actually I'm kinda bias cause I absolutely adore KAKA and is hoping to watch his brilliance again).

Man to watch this match: Steven Gerrard
To know why please check out this video(CHELSEA YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!)

Steven Gerrard - Simply Immense
Uploaded by redhalfofmerseyside

My current obsession-BRYAN ADAMS

I guess everyone have their obsession from time to time which is good if you know the limits but its really bad if you let ur obsession affect your life. Ok..ok back to my current obsession(my obsessions change with seasons except FOR my obsession with LIVERPOOL). I been pretty bored at work so I decide to make myself look busy by going to YOUTUBE and looking at the music videos there. I started by looking at the old backstreet boys videos trying to re-capture the good old days i guess hehe(I was laughing my heart out when i watch the Get down video.BSB was so hilarious in that video with their chessy dance moves hehe)


Then I went to look for the song called heaven ( when i first heard the song it was sung by Hady Mirza(the 2nd S'pore idol)) as i really like the song. I finally got to know that the original singer of that song was BRYAN ADAMS. When I heard the version sung by Bryan Adams it was way better than HAdy Mirza...and man! i instantly fall in love with BRYAN ADAMS voice. His voice is so husky and sexy so different from any other male singers..I know he is almost as old as my dad but man! he's a really one hot daddy hehe..His songs were all so beautiful and they really captures what I imagine love is all about(I know what he sings is kinda bullshit cause no one will ever do what he sings in his songs but i still love it)..So guys if u ever wanna impress a gal just sing any BRYAN ADAMS' song to her(or if you can't sing at least dedicate the song to her) cause if BRYAN ADAMS can make me (the cynical one about love) melt when I hear his songs..other gals would just fall on your feet hehe..

THE ONE

Words of romance used to flow through fingers of a naive gal
like a stream after a heavy rain
now the only words she can think of are full of hate and pain

What brought this unexpected change
the gal who used to see things in vivid colors
now views everything as dull and lifeless

Blame the one promised heaven but brought hell
Blame the one who promised smiles but brought tears
blame the one who promised to always care
but now forever gone no longer there

all that is left of the gal
is an empty shell with a mask of smiles for a face
trapped forever with baggage of shattered dreams

If u are asking urself who is that poor gal
who couldn't be free
Look no further
cause the gal I'm writing about is ME

Perfect Me/Ordinary Me

No I don't want to put on make up
So would you please just shut up
So what if u want me to look pretty
I don't want to suffer for beauty


No I don't want to wear that super short skirt
when will you stop being a jerk
i am perfectly happy in my jeans
please just stop being mean


No I don't want to have perfect hair
So why do u even care
Where's that guy that I loved before
I don't even know you anymore


You want me to be the perfect me
but that is someone I don't want to be
Please stop comparing me with every girl you see
I just want to be ordinary me

TEARS

Droplets of tears starts to stain my cheeks
As i discover the answers that I seek
how could I be so easily deceived
by all the lies that you weaved

How I hate these tears that are flowing
tears that proves my heart is breaking
but you don't even care that I'm hurting
Not a single remorse & now you are leaving

I believed that you are the one for me
that forever we are meant to be
love is just a word without meaning
Now all i am left with are tears and broken dreams

WHY MAN U WILL WIN THE EPL(and I am saying this reluctantly)

I don't understand why Liverpool who played really well on Sat just lost and this is second time that this is happening..I really seriously don't get it..its one of the biggest mysteries in the world...Man u was like just like excess baggage throughout the game & I can only see 1 team playing which is Liverpool. I really hate a team that played badly wins based on luck rather than playing good football. If I wanted a game that depended on luck, I rather go buy 4D..I suspect that all the luck that MAN U & Chelsea have is due to a visit to the "bomoh"(medicine man)hehe
So this is why Man united will win:

1)The "bomoh" will dispel any major injuries from happening to the MAN U players especially their important players such as Ryan giggs,christiano ronaldo,Edwin van der sar etc

2)The Man united "bomoh" is more powerful than Chelsea so no matter what chelsea do they can't curse Man U into failing to grab at least a point in the remaining matches or trying to snatch Man u luck away

3)Man u's "bomoh" have cursed Chelsea important players especially John Terry to be more prone to injuries.

The reasons above are just me trying to look at the humourous side of the title race cause I'm just sick of Liverpool losing to teams that playing badly haiz..

SINGLES RULES! MAYBE NOT..

I was juz reading my previous post(Wedding of the year)..I know it kinda lame to read your old posts but its good insight on how you feel at that time compared to now...SO rite now i'm feeling..mayb singles dun really rule after all heehe sorry to all singles out there this mayb a betrayal but mayb its the after effect of not the D-day but the V-day..and i might change my mind again tommorow hehe..the reason i'm saying this is b'cause i was out on valentine's day meeting my fren of coz(who would be crazy enough to be by themselves in town on v-day man..unless u think torture is ur fave thing to do hehe) well..my fren was late for like 1/2 hr and i was like an idiot waiting but i was able to do some ppl watching..of coz i feel like puking with all the flowers all ard me and the displays of affection which i definitely do not want to see..i was thinking look all these happy ppl but this would only last as long as the roses..(hehe tats the cynic in me talking and also b'cause i was feeling pissed off) but the more i look at these ppl the more I feel that at least they are allowed this 1 day of total happiness, love and caring even if it might not be everlasting..i mean these feelings that u only feel with sumone really special that is not ur family or friends(not tat i'm saying u can't feel happiness, love and caring frm ur family & frens but u know wat i mean) and they do really look truly happy..i look back and i dun think i have ever look that happy... everyone deserve to be tat happy even if its juz for a while..tat y i'm saying SINGLES RULES!? MAYBE NOT....

LIVERPOOL!

Liverpool is really a team that you hate to love and love to hate..Tat is wat i feel abt my fave team in EPL...I mean sometimes they played great like the match against newcastle which i definitely think they should win and yesterday match against Barcelona which i think they did not play great but they won..But tat is wat i love abt them....they are so unpredictable..and tat makes the matches they play more exciting..I think they are really lucky against Barcelona cause Barcelona was not playing great and their keeper had a bad day..and liverpool defence is sloppy yet again but luckily Reina had a great day :)..(man sumtimes i really feel like choking the hell out of the liverpool defence) But it was a good match yesterday because as soon as craig bellamy scored to make it even juz before 1/2 time i knew it was game on and liverpool got a chance to win it or at least get a draw..there's some moments of brilliance from barca like the moment when barca shot on goal which (unluckily for Barca but luckily for liverpool) hit the post and Deco goal is wonderful...but the amazing split second read of the game from Craig bellamy and the UNEXPECTED link up with Riise was really sweet..(actually at tat time i was half way cursing softly Dirk Kyut for missing at close range before yelling softly in joy heehe) Now I can't wait for the 2nd leg and its at Anfield..heehe BRING IT BARCA :-)

ONLY WHEN I'M WITH U

Only when i'm with u
Can time stand still but to pass by so fast
Be relaxed but stressed
be happy but scared

Only when i'm with u
tat the darkness seem to turn bright
I could talk to u all through the night
I only need u to be by my side

Only when I'm with you
I can feel like this
full of wonderful yet conflicting feelings
Yet why am i still hesitating
to accept the heart that u r giving

HOPE!!

Guess what??!! I juz realise that I'm feeling really upset & need someone to talk to but there's no one that i could tink of that I could call..Isn't that kinda sad...does tat mean I'm all alone here..this could be what my life would be like..where everyone have moved on but I'm stuck right here still trapped behind my mask...behind the wall that I have built for my protection..thinking wat the hell I don't need anyone i'm juz fine by myself..but now these walls which serve to protect me have become my prison..been hoping that someone will break through the wall but I could never find someone with the patience or willingness to do it..I have tried to break through the walls myself and I need time to do it..but no one seem to want to wait for me...So what should I do now???I'm feeling so tired..Feel like giving up..but i can't give up cause I still can feel that dim sense of hope...I guess as long as I can feel hope..it's not the end..cause hope always give you something to look forward to...or maybe I'm juz trying to see the glass as half full when actually it's already empty...

NOT MEANT TO BE!!

I guess that now is just too late
Maybe it was decided by fate
I never appreciated you
Even though your love is true


Now that u have gone away
I keep on missing you every day
All i have left is regrets
I have no choice but to forget


I hate myself for causing tears in your eyes
I pray and hope you'll be happy
Even though you and me are not meant to be

THESE GAMES THAT PEOPLE PLAY...

What are these games that people play

Games that cause so much pain

No one ever want to lose control

that is when these games get old...



Some are so submissive

that they can't do their own thinking

Others think that they are superior

that they can't ever admit their error...


These games that people play

have a lot to do with give and take

Only when people stop being fake

the games will then go away...


So take control of your destiny

Within you must have faith

Only then you could get away from

these games that people play....

----So can you guess what the games that ppl play is about?Tell me your opinion and I'll tell what inspired me this poem----Hope to hear what you think abt it!!!