West Ham 1 Liverpool 0 Just one word- Disappointment

I really don't get this..What in hell is Liverpool doing? To concede a penalty at the final min is complete bullshit..Liverpool is no longer the same team as before..it seems like they have lost their spirit...

I've been keeping quiet lately about the way Liverpool is playing..I even kept quiet when they played like shit[especially the defence] against some non league club that is made up of part-timers..But seriously, this is the final straw..I want the old Liverpool back..I want the old Liverpool who fight for every ball and never give up..I want the old Liverpool who might lost but kept their fighting spirit. I want the old Liverpool who is proud to wear their Liverpool shirt and truly feel the words to "You'll never walk alone".

I JUST WANT MY OLD LIVERPOOL BACK!!

West Ham 1 Liverpool 0Just one word- Disappointment

Me in the eyes of other people...

I had a revelation recently.. me and my close friends[You guys know who you are] did a little heart to heart talk..When I say heart to heart, it really is..WE talked about all our fears, our dreams..Cause I guess right now we are all at a junction in life where we have to make a choice about going after our dreams or facing reality...A friend of mine is really facing this issue where she have to make a choice...So we start disscussing about the pro and cons of the decision needed to be made. But me being the cynic, I started blasting at her with all the cons..That's when She laughed and told me that is so typical you...always starting the negatives..Feeling quite shocked when she said that, I told her really, that is how you think of me..

But looking back(this is called reflecting), I do realised that I do look at the worst case scenario first every time a decision has to be made..To me it is a way of being prepared and having plan B. And seriously, I am a firm believer of plan B and being prepared when things go wrong. So the only way I can have get a solution when things go wrong is to mentally thinking out the worst case scenario and finding the solution to that scenario...I know that not all the decision I made will turn to be the worst case scenario but I somehow feel quite comforted at the thought that I had gone through the worst case scenario in my head and I know what to do if it happened..I guess that makes me less of a risk taker but I just don't like risks hehe...

And I do admit that whenever ppl come to me with their problem or needing advise, I'll always begin with the the cons first..because I believe problems are based on a bad and good sides and we always need to take a look at both side before we can come at a solution. But human nature will always be focused more on the good side of things rather than on the bad side..so that is where I come in, informing my frens on the bad side of their decision to have a clearer picture in their head..and if they believe that they could handle the bad side of the decision then they should go ahead with the decisions that they have decided..

Anyways going back to my friends, I realised what true friends I have cause as they say true friends/soulmates are people who knows all abbout your flaws and yet they love you anyways..So guys thanks for being my true friends and trust me I'll always be yours :D

New Year's Resolutions=> so not me..

Hehe I know that it is kinda too late to talk about New Year resolution and stuff but since it is still January..I see no harm in talking about it...

You see I have never made new Year resolution and won't ever make one..But suprisingly this has shocked a few people including my manager who had harmlessly asked me about my resolution...

My theory is this why wait until a new year to make a resolution..Why can't we just make up resolutions as we go on in life.Isn't it more logical to make up resolution in accordance with wat you are facing right now instead of making one in the new year..

I know that some people might argue that New Year resolutions are for us to look back and see what improvement that can be made the next year..But that is kinda of silly don't you think... waiting until the end of the year to do a reflection on yourself..Its like doing nothing about yourself for the whole year and suddenly when the end of the year came, u start to look back on ways u could improve urselve better...So weird hehe...

I wish that above is the answer I have given to my manager when she asked me that ques but I was very surprised by her question that nothing came to mind..I just told her that there's no point making one cause most people say that it is meant to be broken hehe..So very the lame and Cliche...I think I lost a few brain cells when I said that hehe...

So people, there's no harm making New Year's resolution but just don't ask about my New Year's resolution cause I might lose out few more brain cells trying to answer that question ;P

Liverpool 0 Manchester United 1

As expected, Man U won against Liverpool

Well what do u expect from team which well rested against a team which had to travel miles away for a must win match..I knew from the start that fatigue will most definitely play a part and it's a good result if Liverpool managed a draw..But we lost..It doesn't matter..Most people are saying that Liverpool will be out of the Title race etc..To these people, all I can say is WHATEVER!!..You guys have been saying that since we had the drawn matches phase..But guess what we still have a game in hand and nothing is impossible..Teams which look invincible now might crumbles once the African Nation Cup comes along...Points will definitely be dropped..And most importantly, the 4 team ahead of liverpool rite now, have not had a real team crisis yet which Liverpool had gone through...

I am not going to say that Liverpool is going to win the Premiership this season..all I am saying that It is a possibility..So I really hate those guys who keep saying that Liverpool had nothing else to play for this season...Yeah rite..We got to the knock out stage when you ruled us out and maybe bcause u ruled us out now for the premiership..It might give us more determination to win it..

Anyways, I seem to start a tradition where I would be wearing a Liverpool shirt or Jersey whenever Liverpool lost[which won't be often I hope]..So I decided to wear my Liverpool shirt to the office today[my b'day gift from my colleagues :)], and guess what.. the guys in the office are being really nice to me about Liverpool losing hehe maybe they are scared that I might burst into tears if they teased me too much hehe[Benefit of being a girl ;), if its one of the guys(2 gooners & 1 red devil), they surely get it more worse than me]

Just an ordinary day out??

Two couples seen going out together at Vivocity..Looks and sounds ordinary enough...Well guess what..looks can be deceiving..Hehe very melodramatic..On sunday, was the 1st outing me and "him" had just as frens with my sister and her BF acting as lamposts hehe..[Sorry sis :)]..It was familiar yet strange at the same time..Most of the time, we chatted like normal but sometimes when we saw something that might trigger our memories in the times when we were together it got weird..and its up to my sister to fill up the silence...This is the reason I sometimes feel that this wouldn't work..It just doesn't feel the same..and its hard cause this had to be done behind my parents back and had to be with a group when going out with him so it wouldn't be so obvious..But with "him" being "him", he managed to steer my thoughts from all those negatives things.

Somebody asked me what do I love about him:

That is such a hard question to answer because there's so many answers to that question:

But if there's one thing I love about him:

His ability to know what I'm thinking and feeling and just knows how to make me feel better without me telling him..

Liverpool unbeaten run halted by Reading

Reading 3 Liverpool 1

That was seriously the final score for this match..Unbelievable right..Well believe it..After that match, i didn't know whether to cry or to scream[Hehe maybe i should do both]. The tactic were wrong from the start and when I saw Momo Sissoko and that rookie guy[Hobbs something] in the line up, I had a sinking feeling in my stomach..I don't understand why Rafa would not utilised all the talents that he has on the bench..Instead He placed Voronin & Gerrard in position where they couldn't thrive when he has Kewell, Babel and Lucas Leiva..I have always believed in Rafa but this time, his tactics really baffled me. I mean I can understand his position on resting players for the important matches on Marseille & Man u later. But isn't it more logical to put out ur best players on a pitch, go all out to win in the 1st half and start to rest players when we are WINNING..But not in Rafa's mind, I guess this guy's mind didn't work logically as He did the direct opposite by taking off Torres[I don't mind him being off cause he looked slightly injured], Carragher[Leaving Hyppia(old) & Hobbs(too new), and that's when the defence start to crumble] & GERRARD[What was RAFA thinking!!]. And when I heard that, Arsenal also lost against Middlebrough, I seriously did not know whether to be mad or relieved. Mad because this was our chance to close up the gap and we blew it or relieved that at least Arsenal is still within our reach..But what I can say is that I will be truly pissed off, If Arsenal won that match...

Of course me being me, I decided to wear my Liverpool jersey on Sun while being out with my friends just to show my support for liverpool..It doesn't matter that I got teased by strangers and of couse my friends.. me being a girl and wearing a Liverpool shirt and Liverpool losing all that crap..But the weird thing is I saw many guys wearing the Liverpool jersey too..WE just smiled at each other knowing that Win or Lose..WE'LL NEVER WALK ALONE :)

Liverpool vs Porto

Sorry about not writing about liverpool lately. Been bz with all the little crisis in my life...Anyway, back to the topic...If u guys noticed, I only start writing about liverpool matches when it start to get crucial..This is because I am only willing to have 2 or 3 hours of sleep to watch a match when it is important or I know it's going to be an exciting match...And the Liverpool vs Porto match is really important because Liverpool will be out of Champions League if they lose and because Liverpool have been really erratic in Euro, I was worried that this was going to be the last match in Europe for Liverpool[IF they lose I think nobody would care about the last match ]. But fortunately the REDS prove me wrong..and god how I love being wrong this time :)

Liverpool started the match enthuastically with both drive and determination. They were rewarded when TORRES managed to get a goal with a header while being completely unmarked by the Porto defence from a classic Gerrard's corner.[I was thinking how could any defence allow a 26 million pound worth of player be completely unmarked]. But their loss was our gain and from then on Liverpool completely control the game until 15 min before half time when Porto gave Liverpool a taste of their own medicine.

Przemyslaw Kazmierczak's cross floated beautifully into the box and Arbeloa completely misread the flight allowing Lopez to head home the equaliser. After that goal, confidence began to grow in the Porto players as they got the chance to be in the lead twice but was denied due to poor finishing.

I was quite relieved when the half time whistle was blown by the Ref cause I felt that Porto was really very close to get the winning goal.

At half time, Liverpool was not able to get their rhythm and lost control the game. I was truly frustrated at this time cause they were passing aimlessly and keep losing possession of the ball and I heard the Marseille had equalised against Bestika. [I was like Come on REDS you can do it and I was really worried that Liverpool was going to be the 2nd England]

But I guess I had nothing to worry about as Liverpool managed to get 3 goals in a space of 20 mins[A wonderful goal by TORRES yet again with Arbeloa making amends by providing the assist, a penalty by Gerrard and a goal by Peter Crouch]

All in all, I think the match had more positives than negatives as they started the game great but lost their focus and rhythm in the 2nd half and still was able to get a result. The game became so much livelier when Harry Kewell came on and this is another positive as we now have another player who could make a difference in a game when we needed it[Another player was of course Crouch]. Another positive Marseille lost against Bestika and this provide a great chance for Liverpool. But I sure hope that Liverpool won't do an England.

My Birthday Wish list

Feeling bored at work with nothing to do and with my birthday coming up(For the benefit of those who don't know, its on 26 Nov), I decided to create a birthday wish list for all those people who had no idea on what to buy for my B'day hehe ;)

1) Nokia 5310 XpressMusic :I've been wanting a slim HP which have good MP3 player and stereo cause for me that is the must-have function in my HP hehe so when this HP was launched, it was seriously like my dream HP..I would bought it immediately if its not out of my budget now.

2)Sony PSP with FiFa street 2: So that I do not have to fight with my Bro whenever I wanna play FiFa street 2 hehe I'm addicted to that game :)

3)Swensen Ice cream cake(Sticky chewy chocolate flavour): I been wanting to try ice cream cake since forever and maybe this year my wish will come true ;)

4)Liverpool Jersery from the away and european kit(in ladies size pls): I already have the home jersey. I just need the away and european jersey for a complete set ;)

5)To have a good time this sat as my wonderful frens have planned a surprise to celebrate my birthday..I don't even know what they are planning but I sure appreciate their efforts. And I absolutely love surprises but pleasant ones only of course ;)

How do you know that you are in love...

How do you know that you are in love...

A very interesting question don't you think?

Someone could completely adore a person but is not in love with them. In another case scenario, Someone could really annoy a person all the time and make that person think that God had sent that someone to torture him/her but that person is completely in love with that someone.

So how do you know when you are in love..

Is it when its like the cliches in the movies?

Your heart beats faster, palms start to sweat, Keep thinking of that person all the time..blah..blah..blah..

Someone asked me how come you look so cool and relax like nothing is going on..Don't you love him?

You know when that someone asked me that I felt like punching his face..And this is me we're talking about..I am so not the violent type..But when he said that, I seriously feel like beating him up..

I just trying my best to move on without ripping my heart out and here comes this guy, happily judging me because I look calm and cool..

Of coz it hurts a lot..I'm just trying to survive and move on..Crying and remembering the past won't help..it will just suck you down deeper...until it reached to the point where you think you can't live without him/her because you have lost yourself..And you need him/her to validate you and your life...

So excuse me for trying to live...

Titanic and ME

"Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise. "

Jack Dawson

This is the part where I'll always cry no matter how many time I've watched Titanic. Yesterday I was doing some channel surfing when this scene was playing on channel 5..Suddenly BAM! my tears starts flowing, my mom was quite alarmed, she thought I was hurt or something..I told her it was nothing just crying because of the movie..She laughed and told me that I'm such a sentimental..

I don't know why..whenever I watch this scene even without watching the whole movie, my tears automatically starts to flow..Maybe its was it was words that is being said during that scene..It is full of love yet the word L.O.V.E is never mentioned. Hehe.. maybe its just me trying to romanticise that scene but really that is the scene which had touched people hearts.

People might say that titanic is cheesy and a waste of film but me that scene alone is worth it to watch that movie hehe and of coz not fogetting the moment where titanic broke into half and sank..hehe everybody love to have a little carnage to go with the romance in the movie ;)

Just truly utterly tired

So sorry about all the negative posts lately..I know its not like me to keep posting all this negatives..But I had to have a place where I could be upset when I want to..and stop faking my smiles even though I'm hurting inside..But don't worry this is just a phase that I have to go through..I'll be fine soon..I've been there and done that..It'll be okay..(Hehe looks like I'm just trying to console myself)..Talking abt faking it, all these issues(I have to call it issues cause I believe it can be resolved) came just at a time where I'm supposed to look and feel happy..If u haven't guess it, It's hari raya..And every year , I am the enthusiatic one in the family, the one who always looking forward to Hari Raya..The one who keeps everybody excited about celebrating..But this year due to all the issues, I really do not feel like celebrating..I'm tired of smiling because inside I feel like crying...But I had no choice but have to fake up the enthusiam..And now I know how hard it is to fake being happy..That is when suddenly I feel tired...Tired of making ppl happy..Tired of hiding what I'm truly feeling...Tired of waking up every morning and forcing myself to face the day... Simply just truly utterly tired...

When Love becomes hate

This loneliness is smothering me again
all I can feel now is the hurt and the pain
So tired of putting up a brave face
Someone please help me move on from this place

Tears begin to flow
and I had no idea why
I can't stop them from flowing
No matter how hard i try

I need to stay strong
maybe It was fate
Everything has gone so wrong
When love becomes hate

PAIN

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

Dr. Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy


This is my favourite quote from grey's anatomy. Most people would say that you won't learn anything from watching TV but that is so far from the truth. Sometimes watching TV could make you see things in a different way and put things in perspective..

Pain..Most people wish for a life without pain but pain is there for a reason..Pain is there to teach us how to be wiser..cause we will never learn without pain ..

NUMB

If you ask me what I am feeling now..All I can tell you is that I'm feeling numb...Seriously I feel so detached rite now like I'm moving on autopilot...This has left me in such a daze that I even left my purse in my friend's car without even realising it..It didn't start out this way..At first I was angry but not at anyone just at myself..My family and even a colleague at work commented that I'm like so moody lately..

Me and him start out as friends 1st and we became so close tat it was natural for us to go to the next step...It was all fine and happy at first but soon we had to start on the next chapter of our lives which is the working life..That is when everything start to change..He start to become more possesive where he'll get upset each time I went out with my frens and came back late but he knows that before we were together, I specifically told him that I love my freedom and he promised that he won't get upset if I went out with my frens..But you and I all know that promises are made to be broken..

It came to a stage where he'll even msg or call me just to check up on me and to ask where I am...that was the breaking point for me, I hate being checked upon as if i'm some kind of criminal..It feels like he just don't trust me anymore

I know that when relationship starts to fail both parties are at fault..I can't deny that..I know that all this while he's been bugging me to make our relationship official in front of my family(Yup my family doesn't even know that we are a couple, they just think that we are frens) but this doesn't juz involve just me and him..We are from different backgrounds and I'm worried that my parent won't be able to accept him..He took my reluctance to let him meet my parents as a sign that I doesn't care..which is so far away from the truth..

So we both decide that we should take a break from each other to think things through and whether it is best that we stay together or just to remain as frens..But in my heart, I know where this is going to lead..But sometime when you are at a crossroad, you have to pick the road that is best for you even though it is a painful choice to be made...

My Weakness in life

Everyone have their own weaknesses. So I decide to list down the things that makes me goes weak in the knees hehe

So here we go(not in order of merit hehe):

1)Sticky Chewy Chocolate ice cream from Swensen(Each time I have a taste of this, I feel as if I died and went to heaven)

2)Lagsane(my fave food of all time and the weird thing is I love the burnt parts of the lagsane)

3)Ice blended mocha from Coffee bean(The shot of coffee in this could keep me up all night hehe)

4)Hot Macdonald French fries with curry sauce(All i can say is I'm loving it hehe)

5)A smile from a baby(Even if i'm a terrible mood, seeing this will make me smile instantly :))

6)Pink roses(Don't ask me why pink..I myself dunno the ans..juz love it in pink that's all :))

7)Any shirt in that perfect shade of purple(Its so hard to find)

8)LIVERPOOL

9)Chicken rice from Hawa :)(Bring back plenty of good memories everytime I eat this)

10)Carrot cake from Far East Plaza(Yummy!!)

Hehe if you noticed my weakness are mostly food hehe..Does that mean I'm more of a glutton than a material gal? Hmm I dunno wat do u think?

But wait i still haven't tell you all what is my ultimate weakness.

IT'S A SMILE FROM A GUY WITH DIMPLE/DIMPLES!! HEHE...

Go on dun be shy..WANNA TELL ME WHAT'S UR WEAKNESS?? :)

Changes & Strangers

Have you ever wondered about the changes in your life? Whether it had made you a better person or in fact whether there are any significant changes at all in your life? To me, I'm not sure whether the changes in my life have made me into a better person or made me worse(this can only be answered by frens and family who had known me for a long time hehe). But one thing I know is I really hate changes cause it give me feelings of uncertainty. Of coz to some, changes are like new adventures in their life which really is a positive way of thinking. But not for me, I'm pretty happy with the way my life is...until now...There are so many changes in my life that sometime I feel like its too much..Hehe that sound so dramatic..I know that changes is part of life and I know that eventually all relationships need to move on to the next stage. But wat if I'm not ready and I do not want to move on..I don't see anything wrong with that..That doesn't mean that I do not care at all..And that doesn't give u permission to change to someone that i barely know now..Sometimes I wonder..who are u?

Men's hottest Woman & women's hottest man

Hehe..A blog post back to back.Well if you are thinking wat I'm thinking then u are rite...I'm totally absolutely free yesterday & today..As the system is having downtime to be upgraded, I can't do a single thing therefore I'm here to spread my wisdom(or if u wan to put it in another way my nonsense hehe). As u can see from my previous post, i love asking ppl weird ques hehe and from the title you'll know wat ques I asked them and these are the ans they gave me

Men's hottest Woman(based on Hollywood only)
1)Jessica Alba(So many guys give me this ans)


2)Jennifer Love Hewitt


3)Angelina Jolie


4)Catherine Zeta Jones



Women's hottest Man(based on Hollywood only)

1)Johnny Depp


2)Adam Brody


3)Benjamin Bratt


4)Jared Leto


5)Matthew Mcconaughey


I guess you would like to know my ideal man:
Tom Welling from smallville(who can resist that smile rite ;))



Anyway, there is a reason why i did this survey. Interestingly you can see each gal give a different guy to wat they think is hot but for guys, the gals they chose are almost similar don't u think..hehe

Anyways, I came across this article which I think is a very interesting :)
Y dun u guys read it and tell me wat u think?

Men scared of women with perfect figures

Guys & dresses

Hehe you must be wondering wat's the link between guys & dresses rite?? There is a link..Cause guys always go crazy when they see a gal wearing a dress hehe...This actually happened to me..I had one of those rare ocassions(my company D & D) where I had to wear a dress..and you can't imagine how many compliments I received after ppl saw me wearing that dress..Hehe it was kinda hilarious to me.. Cause i am still me the person they see everyday but its just that I'm wearing a dress...hehe

There's even one conversation that when like this(funny to me lah but mayb not to you hehe):
Guy:Wah u look so pretty today..
Me: huh?where got?No lah i'm juz wearing a dress
Guy:Yeah I know but u look so different from usual
Me: of coz lah I'm wearing a dress..all girls look pretty in a dress
Guy: No lah not all..its juz tat u can carry the dress well
Me: Erm..ok thanks for the compliment I guess..(hehe at that point I had no idea what he's talking abt)

Even my "fren" start to treat me differently after he saw me in that dress. He used to be kinda rough which is I'm used to but now he treat me so manja hehe..I tink he finally saw me as a gal and tat i'm not just one of the guys hehe..He told me I shld wear dresses more often..I was like do u know how suffering it is to be in a dress? When u wear a dress, u need to complement it in heels..And do u know how torturing it is to be in heels...Of coz my fren juz laugh and say but you'll look nicer wat hehe(this is the 1st ever compliment frm him)..I was quite shocked at that point..hehe can't believe he juz say tat..

Mayb u shld check out the dress I'm wearing that make guys go crazy but for me I still look like me but juz in a dress




p/s: anyway the D & D sucks...I suffered wearing a dress for nothing hehe

Love is??

Love has so many different meaning to different ppl...So I did some survey and ask them what is their meaning of love..

Here are a few definition of love:

Ladies:
1)Love is companionship
2)Love is attraction
3)Love is sacrifice
4)Love is 99% pain and 1% ecstasy(I love this ans hehe)
5)Love is Love(huh??I catch no balls)
6)Love is sweet
8)Love is maturity
10)Love is crazy(A very gd ans!)

Guys:
1)Love is complicated(This is another gd ans)
2)Love is sex
3)Love is passion
4)Love is suck(huh??actually i don't get it too)

Hehe..It works..As you can see from my survey, ladies tend to describe as love as something that got to do with emotions..But for guys, they tend to lean towards the physical..So I guess now we know what ladies and guys think abt love eh.. :)

Check out the vid..I think it describe what love is all about :)