THE DAY I BETRAYED MY BEST FRIEND

Yes, I betrayed my best friend. I betrayed her trust and her faith in me. I did it knowingly and willingly. Even though I knew it is going to cause her pain and I know for sure that this is going to change my friendship with her. But still did it anyway..I did it for my own selfish reason..I just want my best friend back..

Imagine you have been friends with someone for 12 long years and have been together throughout the good and bad that life have to offer. Imagine the bubbly and outgoing girl that you thought you had known so well suddenly became a whole different person altogether. A person that you know wasn't her and there is a chance to get back the bubbly amazing girl that you used to know. So can you understand now why i had to do it? Why I had to betray her?

It upsets me a lot and makes me feel really miserable that this illness is taking my best friend away from me..She had been having these episodes for a while and I did nothing..I refuse to believe that she is sick and would rather believe in a denial than to face the cold truth.

One day, I no longer could deny it cause I felt that she is no longer there with me and she had turned into another person...I felt so helpless then..I knew that she needed help before she gets any deeper and before she hurts herself or hurts someone else. The only way for her to get help is for me to betray her...So I have to harden my heart and lie point blank in her face so that she will get help she needed.

And she being the girl that she is thought of nothing when I told her we were going to have lunch at IMH..And that is truly the ultimate trust that one could have for a person and I betrayed that..

It hurts me the most when I saw her all tied up on her bed because she refuses to co-operate and turned violent..With pleading eyes, she asked me "why did you bring me here? You don't think that I'm crazy right?"

With tears brimming in my eyes, I told her "No, I don't think you are crazy..You are just sick. The doctors here will help you get better"

So with that, I betrayed my best friend for my own selfish reason of wanting her back. And till now, I still don't know if what I did was right or wrong..But sometimes in life, there are choices that you have to make but you don't want to..And this is one of the hardest choices, I have to make in my life.

Are you happy?

Are you happy? It sounds like the simplest question on earth..but is it really? Most people will answer "Yes, I am" or "Of course, I'm happy". But are they really happy? or are they just answering that question with an expected answer..

Happiness means different things to many people. For most people, they equate happiness with power and money.. But if u really think about it, does the most powerful and wealthiest people in the world look truly happy?

For some people, happiness just mean that they are contend with what they have.
But this kind of thinking will only get misunderstood by others of being complacency or not ambitious enough. But what they don't know is that these people are normally the happiest people on earth because they will always just live for today so they will savour everything that they get and they are thankful for it.

There are majority of people in this world who hate their jobs and always feel that they are meant to do something big/different in their life. While it is good to dream big, at least hold on tight to what is important to you right now so that you will not lose your soul while you are chasing your dreams.

Don't know why I am feeling a bit philosophical today? I guess I was just being affected by the chat I had yesterday...Anyway the song below is dedicated to that someone I had a chat with yesterday..Sometimes when things doesn't go your way, all you have to do is smile :)

Confessions of a villain

I slay, I slash, I kill
I do all that for the thrill
It fills me up with glee
when people starts to flee

Why so serious?
I'll always say
Time to call the bat
I can't wait to play

This permanent smile
It has brought me fame
Let's play a little game
Can you guess my name..

villain