Liverpool 0 Manchester United 1

As expected, Man U won against Liverpool

Well what do u expect from team which well rested against a team which had to travel miles away for a must win match..I knew from the start that fatigue will most definitely play a part and it's a good result if Liverpool managed a draw..But we lost..It doesn't matter..Most people are saying that Liverpool will be out of the Title race etc..To these people, all I can say is WHATEVER!!..You guys have been saying that since we had the drawn matches phase..But guess what we still have a game in hand and nothing is impossible..Teams which look invincible now might crumbles once the African Nation Cup comes along...Points will definitely be dropped..And most importantly, the 4 team ahead of liverpool rite now, have not had a real team crisis yet which Liverpool had gone through...

I am not going to say that Liverpool is going to win the Premiership this season..all I am saying that It is a possibility..So I really hate those guys who keep saying that Liverpool had nothing else to play for this season...Yeah rite..We got to the knock out stage when you ruled us out and maybe bcause u ruled us out now for the premiership..It might give us more determination to win it..

Anyways, I seem to start a tradition where I would be wearing a Liverpool shirt or Jersey whenever Liverpool lost[which won't be often I hope]..So I decided to wear my Liverpool shirt to the office today[my b'day gift from my colleagues :)], and guess what.. the guys in the office are being really nice to me about Liverpool losing hehe maybe they are scared that I might burst into tears if they teased me too much hehe[Benefit of being a girl ;), if its one of the guys(2 gooners & 1 red devil), they surely get it more worse than me]

Just an ordinary day out??

Two couples seen going out together at Vivocity..Looks and sounds ordinary enough...Well guess what..looks can be deceiving..Hehe very melodramatic..On sunday, was the 1st outing me and "him" had just as frens with my sister and her BF acting as lamposts hehe..[Sorry sis :)]..It was familiar yet strange at the same time..Most of the time, we chatted like normal but sometimes when we saw something that might trigger our memories in the times when we were together it got weird..and its up to my sister to fill up the silence...This is the reason I sometimes feel that this wouldn't work..It just doesn't feel the same..and its hard cause this had to be done behind my parents back and had to be with a group when going out with him so it wouldn't be so obvious..But with "him" being "him", he managed to steer my thoughts from all those negatives things.

Somebody asked me what do I love about him:

That is such a hard question to answer because there's so many answers to that question:

But if there's one thing I love about him:

His ability to know what I'm thinking and feeling and just knows how to make me feel better without me telling him..

Liverpool unbeaten run halted by Reading

Reading 3 Liverpool 1

That was seriously the final score for this match..Unbelievable right..Well believe it..After that match, i didn't know whether to cry or to scream[Hehe maybe i should do both]. The tactic were wrong from the start and when I saw Momo Sissoko and that rookie guy[Hobbs something] in the line up, I had a sinking feeling in my stomach..I don't understand why Rafa would not utilised all the talents that he has on the bench..Instead He placed Voronin & Gerrard in position where they couldn't thrive when he has Kewell, Babel and Lucas Leiva..I have always believed in Rafa but this time, his tactics really baffled me. I mean I can understand his position on resting players for the important matches on Marseille & Man u later. But isn't it more logical to put out ur best players on a pitch, go all out to win in the 1st half and start to rest players when we are WINNING..But not in Rafa's mind, I guess this guy's mind didn't work logically as He did the direct opposite by taking off Torres[I don't mind him being off cause he looked slightly injured], Carragher[Leaving Hyppia(old) & Hobbs(too new), and that's when the defence start to crumble] & GERRARD[What was RAFA thinking!!]. And when I heard that, Arsenal also lost against Middlebrough, I seriously did not know whether to be mad or relieved. Mad because this was our chance to close up the gap and we blew it or relieved that at least Arsenal is still within our reach..But what I can say is that I will be truly pissed off, If Arsenal won that match...

Of course me being me, I decided to wear my Liverpool jersey on Sun while being out with my friends just to show my support for liverpool..It doesn't matter that I got teased by strangers and of couse my friends.. me being a girl and wearing a Liverpool shirt and Liverpool losing all that crap..But the weird thing is I saw many guys wearing the Liverpool jersey too..WE just smiled at each other knowing that Win or Lose..WE'LL NEVER WALK ALONE :)

Liverpool vs Porto

Sorry about not writing about liverpool lately. Been bz with all the little crisis in my life...Anyway, back to the topic...If u guys noticed, I only start writing about liverpool matches when it start to get crucial..This is because I am only willing to have 2 or 3 hours of sleep to watch a match when it is important or I know it's going to be an exciting match...And the Liverpool vs Porto match is really important because Liverpool will be out of Champions League if they lose and because Liverpool have been really erratic in Euro, I was worried that this was going to be the last match in Europe for Liverpool[IF they lose I think nobody would care about the last match ]. But fortunately the REDS prove me wrong..and god how I love being wrong this time :)

Liverpool started the match enthuastically with both drive and determination. They were rewarded when TORRES managed to get a goal with a header while being completely unmarked by the Porto defence from a classic Gerrard's corner.[I was thinking how could any defence allow a 26 million pound worth of player be completely unmarked]. But their loss was our gain and from then on Liverpool completely control the game until 15 min before half time when Porto gave Liverpool a taste of their own medicine.

Przemyslaw Kazmierczak's cross floated beautifully into the box and Arbeloa completely misread the flight allowing Lopez to head home the equaliser. After that goal, confidence began to grow in the Porto players as they got the chance to be in the lead twice but was denied due to poor finishing.

I was quite relieved when the half time whistle was blown by the Ref cause I felt that Porto was really very close to get the winning goal.

At half time, Liverpool was not able to get their rhythm and lost control the game. I was truly frustrated at this time cause they were passing aimlessly and keep losing possession of the ball and I heard the Marseille had equalised against Bestika. [I was like Come on REDS you can do it and I was really worried that Liverpool was going to be the 2nd England]

But I guess I had nothing to worry about as Liverpool managed to get 3 goals in a space of 20 mins[A wonderful goal by TORRES yet again with Arbeloa making amends by providing the assist, a penalty by Gerrard and a goal by Peter Crouch]

All in all, I think the match had more positives than negatives as they started the game great but lost their focus and rhythm in the 2nd half and still was able to get a result. The game became so much livelier when Harry Kewell came on and this is another positive as we now have another player who could make a difference in a game when we needed it[Another player was of course Crouch]. Another positive Marseille lost against Bestika and this provide a great chance for Liverpool. But I sure hope that Liverpool won't do an England.

My Birthday Wish list

Feeling bored at work with nothing to do and with my birthday coming up(For the benefit of those who don't know, its on 26 Nov), I decided to create a birthday wish list for all those people who had no idea on what to buy for my B'day hehe ;)

1) Nokia 5310 XpressMusic :I've been wanting a slim HP which have good MP3 player and stereo cause for me that is the must-have function in my HP hehe so when this HP was launched, it was seriously like my dream HP..I would bought it immediately if its not out of my budget now.

2)Sony PSP with FiFa street 2: So that I do not have to fight with my Bro whenever I wanna play FiFa street 2 hehe I'm addicted to that game :)

3)Swensen Ice cream cake(Sticky chewy chocolate flavour): I been wanting to try ice cream cake since forever and maybe this year my wish will come true ;)

4)Liverpool Jersery from the away and european kit(in ladies size pls): I already have the home jersey. I just need the away and european jersey for a complete set ;)

5)To have a good time this sat as my wonderful frens have planned a surprise to celebrate my birthday..I don't even know what they are planning but I sure appreciate their efforts. And I absolutely love surprises but pleasant ones only of course ;)

How do you know that you are in love...

How do you know that you are in love...

A very interesting question don't you think?

Someone could completely adore a person but is not in love with them. In another case scenario, Someone could really annoy a person all the time and make that person think that God had sent that someone to torture him/her but that person is completely in love with that someone.

So how do you know when you are in love..

Is it when its like the cliches in the movies?

Your heart beats faster, palms start to sweat, Keep thinking of that person all the time..blah..blah..blah..

Someone asked me how come you look so cool and relax like nothing is going on..Don't you love him?

You know when that someone asked me that I felt like punching his face..And this is me we're talking about..I am so not the violent type..But when he said that, I seriously feel like beating him up..

I just trying my best to move on without ripping my heart out and here comes this guy, happily judging me because I look calm and cool..

Of coz it hurts a lot..I'm just trying to survive and move on..Crying and remembering the past won't help..it will just suck you down deeper...until it reached to the point where you think you can't live without him/her because you have lost yourself..And you need him/her to validate you and your life...

So excuse me for trying to live...

Titanic and ME

"Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise. "

Jack Dawson

This is the part where I'll always cry no matter how many time I've watched Titanic. Yesterday I was doing some channel surfing when this scene was playing on channel 5..Suddenly BAM! my tears starts flowing, my mom was quite alarmed, she thought I was hurt or something..I told her it was nothing just crying because of the movie..She laughed and told me that I'm such a sentimental..

I don't know why..whenever I watch this scene even without watching the whole movie, my tears automatically starts to flow..Maybe its was it was words that is being said during that scene..It is full of love yet the word L.O.V.E is never mentioned. Hehe.. maybe its just me trying to romanticise that scene but really that is the scene which had touched people hearts.

People might say that titanic is cheesy and a waste of film but me that scene alone is worth it to watch that movie hehe and of coz not fogetting the moment where titanic broke into half and sank..hehe everybody love to have a little carnage to go with the romance in the movie ;)

Just truly utterly tired

So sorry about all the negative posts lately..I know its not like me to keep posting all this negatives..But I had to have a place where I could be upset when I want to..and stop faking my smiles even though I'm hurting inside..But don't worry this is just a phase that I have to go through..I'll be fine soon..I've been there and done that..It'll be okay..(Hehe looks like I'm just trying to console myself)..Talking abt faking it, all these issues(I have to call it issues cause I believe it can be resolved) came just at a time where I'm supposed to look and feel happy..If u haven't guess it, It's hari raya..And every year , I am the enthusiatic one in the family, the one who always looking forward to Hari Raya..The one who keeps everybody excited about celebrating..But this year due to all the issues, I really do not feel like celebrating..I'm tired of smiling because inside I feel like crying...But I had no choice but have to fake up the enthusiam..And now I know how hard it is to fake being happy..That is when suddenly I feel tired...Tired of making ppl happy..Tired of hiding what I'm truly feeling...Tired of waking up every morning and forcing myself to face the day... Simply just truly utterly tired...

When Love becomes hate

This loneliness is smothering me again
all I can feel now is the hurt and the pain
So tired of putting up a brave face
Someone please help me move on from this place

Tears begin to flow
and I had no idea why
I can't stop them from flowing
No matter how hard i try

I need to stay strong
maybe It was fate
Everything has gone so wrong
When love becomes hate

PAIN

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

Dr. Meredith Grey
Grey's Anatomy


This is my favourite quote from grey's anatomy. Most people would say that you won't learn anything from watching TV but that is so far from the truth. Sometimes watching TV could make you see things in a different way and put things in perspective..

Pain..Most people wish for a life without pain but pain is there for a reason..Pain is there to teach us how to be wiser..cause we will never learn without pain ..

NUMB

If you ask me what I am feeling now..All I can tell you is that I'm feeling numb...Seriously I feel so detached rite now like I'm moving on autopilot...This has left me in such a daze that I even left my purse in my friend's car without even realising it..It didn't start out this way..At first I was angry but not at anyone just at myself..My family and even a colleague at work commented that I'm like so moody lately..

Me and him start out as friends 1st and we became so close tat it was natural for us to go to the next step...It was all fine and happy at first but soon we had to start on the next chapter of our lives which is the working life..That is when everything start to change..He start to become more possesive where he'll get upset each time I went out with my frens and came back late but he knows that before we were together, I specifically told him that I love my freedom and he promised that he won't get upset if I went out with my frens..But you and I all know that promises are made to be broken..

It came to a stage where he'll even msg or call me just to check up on me and to ask where I am...that was the breaking point for me, I hate being checked upon as if i'm some kind of criminal..It feels like he just don't trust me anymore

I know that when relationship starts to fail both parties are at fault..I can't deny that..I know that all this while he's been bugging me to make our relationship official in front of my family(Yup my family doesn't even know that we are a couple, they just think that we are frens) but this doesn't juz involve just me and him..We are from different backgrounds and I'm worried that my parent won't be able to accept him..He took my reluctance to let him meet my parents as a sign that I doesn't care..which is so far away from the truth..

So we both decide that we should take a break from each other to think things through and whether it is best that we stay together or just to remain as frens..But in my heart, I know where this is going to lead..But sometime when you are at a crossroad, you have to pick the road that is best for you even though it is a painful choice to be made...

My Weakness in life

Everyone have their own weaknesses. So I decide to list down the things that makes me goes weak in the knees hehe

So here we go(not in order of merit hehe):

1)Sticky Chewy Chocolate ice cream from Swensen(Each time I have a taste of this, I feel as if I died and went to heaven)

2)Lagsane(my fave food of all time and the weird thing is I love the burnt parts of the lagsane)

3)Ice blended mocha from Coffee bean(The shot of coffee in this could keep me up all night hehe)

4)Hot Macdonald French fries with curry sauce(All i can say is I'm loving it hehe)

5)A smile from a baby(Even if i'm a terrible mood, seeing this will make me smile instantly :))

6)Pink roses(Don't ask me why pink..I myself dunno the ans..juz love it in pink that's all :))

7)Any shirt in that perfect shade of purple(Its so hard to find)

8)LIVERPOOL

9)Chicken rice from Hawa :)(Bring back plenty of good memories everytime I eat this)

10)Carrot cake from Far East Plaza(Yummy!!)

Hehe if you noticed my weakness are mostly food hehe..Does that mean I'm more of a glutton than a material gal? Hmm I dunno wat do u think?

But wait i still haven't tell you all what is my ultimate weakness.

IT'S A SMILE FROM A GUY WITH DIMPLE/DIMPLES!! HEHE...

Go on dun be shy..WANNA TELL ME WHAT'S UR WEAKNESS?? :)

Changes & Strangers

Have you ever wondered about the changes in your life? Whether it had made you a better person or in fact whether there are any significant changes at all in your life? To me, I'm not sure whether the changes in my life have made me into a better person or made me worse(this can only be answered by frens and family who had known me for a long time hehe). But one thing I know is I really hate changes cause it give me feelings of uncertainty. Of coz to some, changes are like new adventures in their life which really is a positive way of thinking. But not for me, I'm pretty happy with the way my life is...until now...There are so many changes in my life that sometime I feel like its too much..Hehe that sound so dramatic..I know that changes is part of life and I know that eventually all relationships need to move on to the next stage. But wat if I'm not ready and I do not want to move on..I don't see anything wrong with that..That doesn't mean that I do not care at all..And that doesn't give u permission to change to someone that i barely know now..Sometimes I wonder..who are u?

Men's hottest Woman & women's hottest man

Hehe..A blog post back to back.Well if you are thinking wat I'm thinking then u are rite...I'm totally absolutely free yesterday & today..As the system is having downtime to be upgraded, I can't do a single thing therefore I'm here to spread my wisdom(or if u wan to put it in another way my nonsense hehe). As u can see from my previous post, i love asking ppl weird ques hehe and from the title you'll know wat ques I asked them and these are the ans they gave me

Men's hottest Woman(based on Hollywood only)
1)Jessica Alba(So many guys give me this ans)


2)Jennifer Love Hewitt


3)Angelina Jolie


4)Catherine Zeta Jones



Women's hottest Man(based on Hollywood only)

1)Johnny Depp


2)Adam Brody


3)Benjamin Bratt


4)Jared Leto


5)Matthew Mcconaughey


I guess you would like to know my ideal man:
Tom Welling from smallville(who can resist that smile rite ;))



Anyway, there is a reason why i did this survey. Interestingly you can see each gal give a different guy to wat they think is hot but for guys, the gals they chose are almost similar don't u think..hehe

Anyways, I came across this article which I think is a very interesting :)
Y dun u guys read it and tell me wat u think?

Men scared of women with perfect figures

Guys & dresses

Hehe you must be wondering wat's the link between guys & dresses rite?? There is a link..Cause guys always go crazy when they see a gal wearing a dress hehe...This actually happened to me..I had one of those rare ocassions(my company D & D) where I had to wear a dress..and you can't imagine how many compliments I received after ppl saw me wearing that dress..Hehe it was kinda hilarious to me.. Cause i am still me the person they see everyday but its just that I'm wearing a dress...hehe

There's even one conversation that when like this(funny to me lah but mayb not to you hehe):
Guy:Wah u look so pretty today..
Me: huh?where got?No lah i'm juz wearing a dress
Guy:Yeah I know but u look so different from usual
Me: of coz lah I'm wearing a dress..all girls look pretty in a dress
Guy: No lah not all..its juz tat u can carry the dress well
Me: Erm..ok thanks for the compliment I guess..(hehe at that point I had no idea what he's talking abt)

Even my "fren" start to treat me differently after he saw me in that dress. He used to be kinda rough which is I'm used to but now he treat me so manja hehe..I tink he finally saw me as a gal and tat i'm not just one of the guys hehe..He told me I shld wear dresses more often..I was like do u know how suffering it is to be in a dress? When u wear a dress, u need to complement it in heels..And do u know how torturing it is to be in heels...Of coz my fren juz laugh and say but you'll look nicer wat hehe(this is the 1st ever compliment frm him)..I was quite shocked at that point..hehe can't believe he juz say tat..

Mayb u shld check out the dress I'm wearing that make guys go crazy but for me I still look like me but juz in a dress




p/s: anyway the D & D sucks...I suffered wearing a dress for nothing hehe

Love is??

Love has so many different meaning to different ppl...So I did some survey and ask them what is their meaning of love..

Here are a few definition of love:

Ladies:
1)Love is companionship
2)Love is attraction
3)Love is sacrifice
4)Love is 99% pain and 1% ecstasy(I love this ans hehe)
5)Love is Love(huh??I catch no balls)
6)Love is sweet
8)Love is maturity
10)Love is crazy(A very gd ans!)

Guys:
1)Love is complicated(This is another gd ans)
2)Love is sex
3)Love is passion
4)Love is suck(huh??actually i don't get it too)

Hehe..It works..As you can see from my survey, ladies tend to describe as love as something that got to do with emotions..But for guys, they tend to lean towards the physical..So I guess now we know what ladies and guys think abt love eh.. :)

Check out the vid..I think it describe what love is all about :)

A letter from Luis

This is a touching letter from Luis Garcia. Once a Red, Always a RED..How I wish he's still playing for Liverpool...

Dear Reds,

First of all I'd like to apologise for not having been back in touch sooner, but I needed to take some time to take on board all the recent changes and then to put down these words for you.

I'm sure you will understand.

I would rather this be a letter of thanks and gratitude, not simply a goodbye.

Yes, that's right, gratitude, because that is the word that best sums up my feelings for you all.

Taking the decision to change clubs hasn't been easy. Not easy at all.

I've experienced three fantastic years at the club and in the city. Three years in which together, the fans and the team, we have accomplished some fantastic achievements, and I'm sure that these successes will continue to be repeated in the near future.

You know that I like a challenge and that I don't just settle for second best.

Back then Liverpool Football Club gave me the opportunity to be part of an ambitious plan to put the Reds back at the summit of the game.

I think that together we managed to achieve that.

As I said, I do like challenges and in spite of the fact that at that time I was playing for my home town club, one of the biggest in the world, I wanted to be a part of that project that was being presented to me by Liverpool, and so I accepted the challenge.

Now, after three seasons in the Premier League and having won some major trophies, the chance came up for me to return to La Liga and be part of a new project at a club I already knew.

The idea of enjoying things in a Spanish club like we experienced together at Liverpool over these last three years appealed to me, and that's why I accepted the offer.

I want to thank everyone working at Liverpool Football Club for how well they have treated both my family and I, making us feel at home from the very first day to the last.

I also want to thank the management, coaching staff and directors for the opportunity they gave me back then to be part of such an important and well-loved club as Liverpool. A club which has helped me to grow as a footballer and where to date I have enjoyed the biggest success of my career.

Without a doubt, this success has been possible thanks to the outstanding group of players with whom Ive been able to share a dressing room over the last three seasons.

I'm not going to mention anyone specifically, because I think that the secret of this team's success has been exactly that: nobody wanted to stand out above the rest and there has always been a great togetherness in the squad, which made it into something more than a group of players, it was a group of friends.

Thanks to all of you for your help and your friendship.

I've left until last the thank you which for me is the most important: Thank you to the supporters.

Your support allowed me to settle quickly at both the club and in the city, and you made me feel really at ease with you all right from the word go; that's the kind of help that you notice most of all during the difficult times, of which there have been a few during my time here.

I'd like to especially thank you for making up a song for me and you should know that every time I heard you singing it, it was like an extra injection of strength and motivation, even helping me to overcome pain occasionally during a game.

Your unconditional support is the thing that ensures that this team manages to pull through in the most difficult circumstances; and I can assure you that the whole squad is aware of this and thanks you for it.

A football club isn't just made up of players, coaches and directors. More than anything else it's the supporters who make a club, and that perhaps is the ingredient which best distinguishes Liverpool Football Club from every other team. The supporters.

Because if one thing has remained obvious to me after these few years, it's that with supporters like you, Liverpool Football Club will never walk alone.

I really hope that the club wins lots of major trophies in the future; I'll be following it all from a distance, with the pride that you can only get from having been a Red and played for the home team at Anfield – a ground that every football fan must visit at least once in their life.

Thank you for everything. Yours most sincerely,

Your friend, Luís García

Beauty vs Cute

Most people impressions when they 1st saw me is You're so cute(which according to my "fren": cute = ugly but adorable). SO whenever ppl call me that i will always say thanks with a smile..Y? because it is true..I rather be ugly but adorable rather than pretty but self-centred =P Its not that I am stereotyping all pretty gals are like that but its based on majority and my life experience hehe..I know 1st hand cause i been living with 2 pretty gals in the whole duration of my life..Its a miracle that I do not have self esteem issues...

One thing about pretty gals is that they expect everyone to cater for them and to solve their problems for them just by flashing their smiles..I guess that this is just one of the side effects of being pretty I guess..As I have said earlier, this is based on living in the shadows of 2 pretty sisters:)

So what is the side effects of being cute? Well you tend to care too much about other people that you tend to forget to care about your own self..This personality trait was observed by non other than my "fren". He always told me why do you care about others so much..Just let them be..they are all adult, they can solve their own problem..But the problem is if someone come to me with a problem, I always try to think up ways to solve the problem that sometimes I stress myself up..hehe..I just can't help it..

But guys dun worry you can just come up to me with your probs, i love hearing ppl problem and solving it..Mayb i just like solving problem but at the end of the day, i realise that some problems are really out of my league and all I can offer is a listening ear...which is good enough I hope :)

Back to the future

Well I was super-bored at work and got nothing to do as the system is having freakin' issues yet again...I dunno what's up with the system this month...it seem to be having issues every day and its affecting my freakin' catalogs haiz..OK so back to the topic..I was surfing the youtube trying to find any video that catches my eye and I saw this video showing the scene where Micheal J Fox was playing the Johnny B Goode song...Man..I love this scene from the movie...IN FACT, I LOVE ALL THE SCENES FROM THIS MOVIE..Its one of my fave movie from all times cause you'll never get tired watching it(its like those Bujang Lapok movies hehe) but its also could be due to the fact that I had a little crush on Micheal J Fox(He's kinda cute :)) after the 1st time I watch the movie hehe

Anyways..what I like most about this scene is of course the sound from the guitar..I love any songs with melodious guitar rifts :)

Well then..enjoy the video and listen carefully to the guitar..Its out of this world ;)

Thinking of thoughts that I shouldn't have

I don't know what is going on lately in my life..Everything seem to be going wrong..ME and HIM just can't seem to communicate any more..the more we try, the worse it become..Every words said are analysed and in the end the conclusion reached were that those words were meant to hurt..Have we reached the end of the road..is this truly the end..it hurts me a lot to say this but in a relationship, there is no point, if trust is replaced by suspicions and words are longer said to please but to hurt..I can't even pin-point the reason that cause everything to change..One day we were just like a normal couple and the next thing I know we are saying things and bringing up the past to hurt each other..WHY???

We have overcome so much to be together and just to throw it away like thrash is so painful...Maybe to you what we have meant nothing...Most people don't even believe that we having this crisis now..On the surface we always look like the perfect couple mayb that is the reason why this is happening now..Mayb we just look too perfect together hiding our displeasure at each other and saving it up until it exploded now..I just don't know what to do now..

Oh my god, I can't believe that I'm thinking about this..Mayb we should take a break from each other..

A night of perseverance & triumph

A night of perseverance & triumph that is how I will describe the Champions League Final..AC Milan persevered and they triumph..Yup sound like Liverpool rite but no..this time Liverpool was dominating the game and they could finish of the game in the 1/2 half where shots after shots are wasted by Liverpool..That is why they have no one to blame but themselves..what I'm feeling now..DISAPPOINTED..not really cause they played hard, brought the game to Milan and did their best..I really appreciate the REDS for that and I applaud them...UPSET..DEFINITELY!!because they played better than Milan..But I guess it is fated that it is AC Milan time to shine..Well life is unfair but football is cruelly unfair I guess..Its hard to accept when we lose by a fluke goal & by a single lapse of concentration...Well the final whistle has been blown(unfairly again as it was blown before the extra time was up) and the curtain of the Champions League Final has been drawn..AC Milan is the deserving CHAMPIONS for taking whatever few chances they had and making full use of it..But guess what it's only a loan..We will be coming back for it :)

EPL has ended

So now official EPL has ended...what is left to look forward to is the FA Cup final(which I don't want either team to win it so I won't really be looking forward to this match) & the Champion league final which I want both teams to win it so I'm in a serious dilemma but of course i'm leaning more towards Liverpool cause this team is the only one my heart. I really admire AC Milan team though not because they made Man U look like a schoolboy team but I think that they are the only team that deserve to be in the final with Liverpool hehe :).

My prediction for the FA Cup final..I only decide on chelsea because it might save Jose Mourinho job and it will stop those infuriating Man U fans bragging about winning the double..it is already bad enough that they already won the EPL(But they deserve to win it though, they played really briliantlly this season). Although I hate Chelsea to the core hehe(they are the new Man U) but I absolutely adore Jose..He's such an interesting coach and without him EPL post match conference will be so boring...

My bold prediction for the Champion league Final: LIVERPOOL TO WIN IT as a true Red I will never wish for my beloved team opponent to win it but of coz if i'm being honest AC Milan have a higher chance of winning it just look at the quality players they have..nut I dun mind Liverpool being the underdogs..it seem like we just perform better when we had the underdog label tag to us ;)


SO COME REDS!!RELIVE ISTANBUL..YNWA!!

Just for inspiration..check out the video below. :D

Liverpool vs Milan Documentary
Uploaded by drogballs

Truly one hell of a week!!

Oh my god! there is so much action and drama going last week on planet football. Actually I intend to write my opinions right after the champions League matches but I decide to wait untill after the EPL matches were played...And my gut instinct was truly on the spot...since there's so much drama that happened during the chase of the Premiership trophy...

But 1st let's start with the Championship league:

AC MILAN VS MAN U

Man!what a roller coaster ride of a match!!When i was watching this match at 1st i was quite annoyed when Ronaldo(or is it own goal by DIDA??) scored because AC Milan gave away a very stupid goal(must be Man U bomoh at work again cause the AC milan players looks like they are in a slumber hehe)..but the spell was broken by my very own real life Prince Charming KAKA(hehe my wishful thinking only) when he took advantage of a napping Man U defence to score an equaliser..(I was able to breathe much better after that goal). But KAKA brilliance was not over, in the 37th min, KAKA manage to get past 2 of Man U defenders as Heinze & Evra get in each other way to allow KAKA to calmly slot the lead past Van Der Sar.(I was like so happy when KAKA scored that goal cause he was showcasing his brilliance once again & I was actually laughing at how KAKA managed to make 2 good defenders look like a pair of clowns during the replay)I was actually thinking this is it for Man U but haiz..it was not meant to be..Man U was truly the King of Comeback this season..Gustusso exit from the from the match in the second half seem to breathe life into the Man U midfield which seem to be lifeless during the 1st half..An equaliser and a last min goal from Rooney seal the deal in the second half and MAN U bring back with them an advantage when they meet AC Milan in the San Siro for the 2nd Leg..



CHELSEA vs LIVERPOOL
This match is completely the polar opposite of the AC Milan vs Man U match..It starts out real slow and steady, not fast & furious as the AC Milan & Man U match. This is probably due to the fact that Liverpool & Chelsea had meet each other so many times that they were able to read each other moves well.(It could also be because there wasn't enough effort put in by Liverpool during the match. I was so mad at them for playing this game so poorly). Joe Cole's goal at the 29 min was the only goal but Liverpool was lucky not to concede more(luckily Reina was in top form Phew..)Poor me kena teased by my collegues, I got no choice but to accept it cause really I feel Liverpool deserve the loss..They just did not played good enough against Chelsea..Luckily its just 1 goal deficit and it is still possible for Liverpool to claw their way to the final.



Back to the EPL:

EVERTON vs MAN U
King of Comeback strikes again(in fact I think they should be proclaimed as Master of Comeback) & Wayne Rooney saves the day once again..I think these were the headlines screaming out in the papers after this pulsating & heart-thumping match. I actually kept my eye on both the Man U and Chelsea matches that night but it seem to me that the Man U match was more exciting right from the start. Everton leads with two goals and by now you should know the end of the story whenever Man U is trailing behind..But in this case it was Everton who gifted 2 goals to Man U.(A colossal mistake by the Everton Keeper & and an own goal ironically by ex-man U player Phil Neville..[I wonder how Gary Neville thank his brother for the goal heehe mayb a share of the EPL trophy prize $$]). After being on level terms, u might think that Sir Alex might rest some players for the Champions League game but no sir, not the man they called "the hairdryer", he bring on Christiano Ronaldo and that increased the tempo of the game as Man U search for a winner...And you won't expect it to be anybody else but Rooney to find that winning goal..Everton having a flying start to the match seem to have given up after Rooney's goal and it is before long that Everton concede another goal to a promising young Man U talent(Eagles). With Chelsea held to a draw by Bolton, Man U celebrated as if they already won the title at the final whistle(perhaps to Chelsea fans, it was tad too early).What's interesting for me is to watch the different expressions that shows on Sir Alex Ferguson face's through the match from the time Man U was trailing(where his chewing gum bear the brunt of his frustration and watching his face getting redder by the minute hehee) to the time when Man U was leading. His expessions itself make the match interesting to watch (heehe to me lah as always, I'm always trying to find the humourous side of football ;))

It's gonna be one hell of a week :D

It's gonna be one hell of a week(FOR FOOTBALL FANS)!!!

1st up we have the Champions League semi finals.. One of the POSTMAN questions is EPL the best league in the world? Most ppl said yes but there are some who says no...I am one of them who said no cause to me Champions League is the best league in the world hehehe...I know..I know..most of u are protesting already that the Champions League is not really a league wat..Yup its true but it is the only league that features the best clubs in EUROPE where most of the best players are playing ;)






MAN U vs AC MILAN
This match is going to be mouth watering cause it is pitting 2 of the current best players against each other...You should know who I'm talking abt..of coz it's KAKA and Ronaldo..And also personally FOR ME, it is against the team that I like(AC MILAN[only because of KAKA hehe]) and a team that I'm neutral abt(MAN U[its true lah..why do ppl always expect Liverpool fan to hate Man U?!?!])..So who will Triumph?
Will the 7-1 trashing from MAN U to AS ROMA will be on AC Milan minds? OR will the MAN U allow the Premiership chase distract them from their Champion League dreams??






LIVERPOOL vs CHELSEA
This match is all about personal vendettas that both clubs have against each other..For Chelsea, its all about exacting revenge to Liverpool for kicking them out of the 2005 Champions League through a "ghost goal" as per Mourinho description of the goal that kicked them out, brought Liverpool to the final and eventually winning the Champions League on that incredible night in Istanbul(a night that i am so thankful that i'm able to experience it in my lifetime[although just at home on TV] hehe). For Liverpool, it's all about proving to Chelsea and the world that the "ghost goal" and winning the 2005 Champions League was not a fluke. To prove that thay are the best in EUROPE (although they seriously suck in the EPL hehe[please ah only I can say that abt Liverpool]). So will Chelsea's desire for revenge will be thrown right back on their faces and be their stumbling block to the Champions League Final that ended their (im)possible quadraple dream?(I'm praying that it will happen hehe) OR will Liverpool prove their worth and show to the world that we are truly the Kings of Europe?(I don't know what more we need to prove cause we already won it 5 times ;P)

Enjoy the ride on the rollercoaster called CHAMPIONS LEAGUE which will make you feel as if you are at the top of the world OR plunge you into the world of despair(Wow so dramatic hehe but that is how i really feel when i watch the champions league). Its MAKE IT or BREAK IT TIME!!

THANKS EVERYONE!! :)

I had so many of my friends calling me up and smsing asking how I am doing when I post up my poems in my blog. I know my poems are kinda depressing but that doesn't not mean that I'm feeling sad right now Or that I just broke up with someone. The poems I wrote are just my inspirations which are derived from past experiences, my frens experiences or my take on how ppl feel when they are in that situation..and since many ppl were asking me wat those poems mean and what inspire me to write these poems..ok..ok I tell you

1st poem: Tears

This poem was inspired by my best fren experience who kinda being led on by this idiotic guy who refuse to go to the next stage of the relationship. I mean they have been going out for months and all this while it was my fren who have been asking him out and "wearing the pants in this relationship" the guy didn't even do a thing..haiz..I was so angry with this idiot guy that it inspired me this poem. :) [see got nothing to do with me :)]


2nd poem: Perfect me/Ordinary me

I got an idea about this poem when my "fren" commented about my attire and how i could look better if I dress up. I was like "wat u mean by that" and I never complain when u don't comb your hair or never iron your clothes & since when do you care about this superficial stuff. I guess ppl does change when they are in different environment(since me & him are working now and him being surrounded by all those made up "pretty gals"). I was so mad and upset when he say that cause I was feeling as if I'm not good enough for him now..haiz..so I vented my anger and frustration on in this poem:) [ok this got something to do with me but actually don't all gals/guys have experience this before with their other half ;P]


3rd poem: The One

hehe everyone thought I broke up with someone when they read this poem maybe due to the 2nd poem heehe very misleading eh..actually no lah..its just me remembering the past...Cause the feelings that i felt after writing the second poem made me remember my 1st ever love..I feel that it was funny that events that happens long time ago still have such big effect on me now and that I'm still not free from those memories which I have been trying hard to forget and i can still feel the hurt I felt from those days haiz...Well no one can ever forget their 1st love. But its true when i was in love for the 1st time, all the poems I wrote have happy endings but rite now I guess after reading the poems that i wrote earlier, most poems are about betrayal..I dunno why..Maybe I have become a cynical and more realist person..someone who no longer believe in words of love..[OK lah i admit this poem got 100% to do with me but believe me,I'm over it & I am perfectly happy with the way that I am now :)]

So thanks everyone for caring and i hope that these will answer all your questions regarding my poems :)

LIVERPOOL vs CHELSEA IN THE SEMI YET AGAIN

hAIZ..looks like we are going to Stamford Bridge yet again..It really sucks man..I was hoping to meet Valencia who was known as the spanish version of Liverpool..(Hehe I was hoping to see if we can beat a team with similar style of play)...But I guess my dream was not meant to be...So well we are meeting Chelsea, a team that is all about individual brilliance, vs US, a team that work hard together. I hate it when we meet this kind of team cause it just take one person to be at the right place at the right time for Liverpool to lose. This have happened plenty of times before(remember Man U). So I'm just crossing my fingers that Chelsea's luck have run out and that the liverpool team will play as if it is the Champions League Final.

I'm also hoping that AC Milan will knock out Man U so that Man U fans will not be able to gloat and so that it will be another spectacular final with AC MILAN(actually I'm kinda bias cause I absolutely adore KAKA and is hoping to watch his brilliance again).

Man to watch this match: Steven Gerrard
To know why please check out this video(CHELSEA YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!)

Steven Gerrard - Simply Immense
Uploaded by redhalfofmerseyside

My current obsession-BRYAN ADAMS

I guess everyone have their obsession from time to time which is good if you know the limits but its really bad if you let ur obsession affect your life. Ok..ok back to my current obsession(my obsessions change with seasons except FOR my obsession with LIVERPOOL). I been pretty bored at work so I decide to make myself look busy by going to YOUTUBE and looking at the music videos there. I started by looking at the old backstreet boys videos trying to re-capture the good old days i guess hehe(I was laughing my heart out when i watch the Get down video.BSB was so hilarious in that video with their chessy dance moves hehe)


Then I went to look for the song called heaven ( when i first heard the song it was sung by Hady Mirza(the 2nd S'pore idol)) as i really like the song. I finally got to know that the original singer of that song was BRYAN ADAMS. When I heard the version sung by Bryan Adams it was way better than HAdy Mirza...and man! i instantly fall in love with BRYAN ADAMS voice. His voice is so husky and sexy so different from any other male singers..I know he is almost as old as my dad but man! he's a really one hot daddy hehe..His songs were all so beautiful and they really captures what I imagine love is all about(I know what he sings is kinda bullshit cause no one will ever do what he sings in his songs but i still love it)..So guys if u ever wanna impress a gal just sing any BRYAN ADAMS' song to her(or if you can't sing at least dedicate the song to her) cause if BRYAN ADAMS can make me (the cynical one about love) melt when I hear his songs..other gals would just fall on your feet hehe..

THE ONE

Words of romance used to flow through fingers of a naive gal
like a stream after a heavy rain
now the only words she can think of are full of hate and pain

What brought this unexpected change
the gal who used to see things in vivid colors
now views everything as dull and lifeless

Blame the one promised heaven but brought hell
Blame the one who promised smiles but brought tears
blame the one who promised to always care
but now forever gone no longer there

all that is left of the gal
is an empty shell with a mask of smiles for a face
trapped forever with baggage of shattered dreams

If u are asking urself who is that poor gal
who couldn't be free
Look no further
cause the gal I'm writing about is ME

Perfect Me/Ordinary Me

No I don't want to put on make up
So would you please just shut up
So what if u want me to look pretty
I don't want to suffer for beauty


No I don't want to wear that super short skirt
when will you stop being a jerk
i am perfectly happy in my jeans
please just stop being mean


No I don't want to have perfect hair
So why do u even care
Where's that guy that I loved before
I don't even know you anymore


You want me to be the perfect me
but that is someone I don't want to be
Please stop comparing me with every girl you see
I just want to be ordinary me

TEARS

Droplets of tears starts to stain my cheeks
As i discover the answers that I seek
how could I be so easily deceived
by all the lies that you weaved

How I hate these tears that are flowing
tears that proves my heart is breaking
but you don't even care that I'm hurting
Not a single remorse & now you are leaving

I believed that you are the one for me
that forever we are meant to be
love is just a word without meaning
Now all i am left with are tears and broken dreams

WHY MAN U WILL WIN THE EPL(and I am saying this reluctantly)

I don't understand why Liverpool who played really well on Sat just lost and this is second time that this is happening..I really seriously don't get it..its one of the biggest mysteries in the world...Man u was like just like excess baggage throughout the game & I can only see 1 team playing which is Liverpool. I really hate a team that played badly wins based on luck rather than playing good football. If I wanted a game that depended on luck, I rather go buy 4D..I suspect that all the luck that MAN U & Chelsea have is due to a visit to the "bomoh"(medicine man)hehe
So this is why Man united will win:

1)The "bomoh" will dispel any major injuries from happening to the MAN U players especially their important players such as Ryan giggs,christiano ronaldo,Edwin van der sar etc

2)The Man united "bomoh" is more powerful than Chelsea so no matter what chelsea do they can't curse Man U into failing to grab at least a point in the remaining matches or trying to snatch Man u luck away

3)Man u's "bomoh" have cursed Chelsea important players especially John Terry to be more prone to injuries.

The reasons above are just me trying to look at the humourous side of the title race cause I'm just sick of Liverpool losing to teams that playing badly haiz..

SINGLES RULES! MAYBE NOT..

I was juz reading my previous post(Wedding of the year)..I know it kinda lame to read your old posts but its good insight on how you feel at that time compared to now...SO rite now i'm feeling..mayb singles dun really rule after all heehe sorry to all singles out there this mayb a betrayal but mayb its the after effect of not the D-day but the V-day..and i might change my mind again tommorow hehe..the reason i'm saying this is b'cause i was out on valentine's day meeting my fren of coz(who would be crazy enough to be by themselves in town on v-day man..unless u think torture is ur fave thing to do hehe) well..my fren was late for like 1/2 hr and i was like an idiot waiting but i was able to do some ppl watching..of coz i feel like puking with all the flowers all ard me and the displays of affection which i definitely do not want to see..i was thinking look all these happy ppl but this would only last as long as the roses..(hehe tats the cynic in me talking and also b'cause i was feeling pissed off) but the more i look at these ppl the more I feel that at least they are allowed this 1 day of total happiness, love and caring even if it might not be everlasting..i mean these feelings that u only feel with sumone really special that is not ur family or friends(not tat i'm saying u can't feel happiness, love and caring frm ur family & frens but u know wat i mean) and they do really look truly happy..i look back and i dun think i have ever look that happy... everyone deserve to be tat happy even if its juz for a while..tat y i'm saying SINGLES RULES!? MAYBE NOT....

LIVERPOOL!

Liverpool is really a team that you hate to love and love to hate..Tat is wat i feel abt my fave team in EPL...I mean sometimes they played great like the match against newcastle which i definitely think they should win and yesterday match against Barcelona which i think they did not play great but they won..But tat is wat i love abt them....they are so unpredictable..and tat makes the matches they play more exciting..I think they are really lucky against Barcelona cause Barcelona was not playing great and their keeper had a bad day..and liverpool defence is sloppy yet again but luckily Reina had a great day :)..(man sumtimes i really feel like choking the hell out of the liverpool defence) But it was a good match yesterday because as soon as craig bellamy scored to make it even juz before 1/2 time i knew it was game on and liverpool got a chance to win it or at least get a draw..there's some moments of brilliance from barca like the moment when barca shot on goal which (unluckily for Barca but luckily for liverpool) hit the post and Deco goal is wonderful...but the amazing split second read of the game from Craig bellamy and the UNEXPECTED link up with Riise was really sweet..(actually at tat time i was half way cursing softly Dirk Kyut for missing at close range before yelling softly in joy heehe) Now I can't wait for the 2nd leg and its at Anfield..heehe BRING IT BARCA :-)

ONLY WHEN I'M WITH U

Only when i'm with u
Can time stand still but to pass by so fast
Be relaxed but stressed
be happy but scared

Only when i'm with u
tat the darkness seem to turn bright
I could talk to u all through the night
I only need u to be by my side

Only when I'm with you
I can feel like this
full of wonderful yet conflicting feelings
Yet why am i still hesitating
to accept the heart that u r giving

HOPE!!

Guess what??!! I juz realise that I'm feeling really upset & need someone to talk to but there's no one that i could tink of that I could call..Isn't that kinda sad...does tat mean I'm all alone here..this could be what my life would be like..where everyone have moved on but I'm stuck right here still trapped behind my mask...behind the wall that I have built for my protection..thinking wat the hell I don't need anyone i'm juz fine by myself..but now these walls which serve to protect me have become my prison..been hoping that someone will break through the wall but I could never find someone with the patience or willingness to do it..I have tried to break through the walls myself and I need time to do it..but no one seem to want to wait for me...So what should I do now???I'm feeling so tired..Feel like giving up..but i can't give up cause I still can feel that dim sense of hope...I guess as long as I can feel hope..it's not the end..cause hope always give you something to look forward to...or maybe I'm juz trying to see the glass as half full when actually it's already empty...