My first love of coz definitely don't look anything like that person above.hehe..He's a chinese malay mix and guess where I met him..At a River Valley High Girl guides and scouts campfire..Yup, so very cliche..I know..But I guess sparks just flew between us across the campfire..He smiled and I smiled back and that's the start of a 3 year long relationship. I learned a lot from this relation and I can truly say I have never regretted it...in fact I should thank him(so Alfian if you happen to read this "thanks and you're the best 1st love anyone could ever have cause you completely made me realised wat relationship is all about and definitely made me into a better person" :D)
So anyways, of course most 1st love wouldn't last..we both out-grew with each other and wanted different things in our lives so we decided to move on.
After that I don't really want to be in a relationship and wanted to embrace my singlehood so I was single for most of the time while I was in ITE. And those times when I was attached, I wasn't really into it and I guess it does reflect, the relationship only last for a couple of months and I didn't even feel sad when it ended..I juz felt relieved hehe [Sorry to Mr whoever-you-are, I can't even remember your name and that is how insignificant you are to my life but thank you all the same cause you taught me the lesson that relationship are not like fairy tales sometime it just doesn't end with a happy ending].
After I had two relationships without a happy ending, I told myself that I should just left fate decide and stop hoping and searching for love. During this time, I'm not sure why but I just blossomed I guess..Guys started asking me out and I would go of course because it was a compliment to have guys ask you out but something was missing...I was so not having fun during the dates and the only fun I had was after it when I was dissecting the date and laughing about it with my best guy friend :)As it goes, this best guy friend of mine is like an enemy and a motivator all rolled up in one..Sometimes he tormented me so much that I seriously had thought of ways to hurt him badly and sometimes I feel like he is the only person in the whole wide world that understands and accepts me exactly the way that I am. He's the only person who could understand the way that I'm feeling without me talking about it and at times, we could even complete each other sentences..Yup I know cliche again but its true :)
At that time, I did think that maybe this is the guy that fate had brought to me but both of us were absolute polar opposite so I convinced myself that he could not possibly the one. WE remained best of friends till we had to work together 24/7 on our final year project...That is the period that really sucks..We fought all the time and could not really agree on anything, it magnified the fact that both of us are truly 2 completely different people..There is still this one time I still remember how angry he was at over a mistake I made and I remembered feeling that I was not being appreciated..And he had the dubious title of the only guy that made me cry. That I is when I realise that actually I really cared about him more than a friend, no other guy had ever made me cry before cause if u know me well, I hate to cry..I will never cry over a guy unless I truly cared about him.
And the rest as they say is history, this fairy tale has not yet reached its ending but i sure hope it will be a happily ever after ;)
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