My current obsession-BRYAN ADAMS

I guess everyone have their obsession from time to time which is good if you know the limits but its really bad if you let ur obsession affect your life. Ok..ok back to my current obsession(my obsessions change with seasons except FOR my obsession with LIVERPOOL). I been pretty bored at work so I decide to make myself look busy by going to YOUTUBE and looking at the music videos there. I started by looking at the old backstreet boys videos trying to re-capture the good old days i guess hehe(I was laughing my heart out when i watch the Get down video.BSB was so hilarious in that video with their chessy dance moves hehe)


Then I went to look for the song called heaven ( when i first heard the song it was sung by Hady Mirza(the 2nd S'pore idol)) as i really like the song. I finally got to know that the original singer of that song was BRYAN ADAMS. When I heard the version sung by Bryan Adams it was way better than HAdy Mirza...and man! i instantly fall in love with BRYAN ADAMS voice. His voice is so husky and sexy so different from any other male singers..I know he is almost as old as my dad but man! he's a really one hot daddy hehe..His songs were all so beautiful and they really captures what I imagine love is all about(I know what he sings is kinda bullshit cause no one will ever do what he sings in his songs but i still love it)..So guys if u ever wanna impress a gal just sing any BRYAN ADAMS' song to her(or if you can't sing at least dedicate the song to her) cause if BRYAN ADAMS can make me (the cynical one about love) melt when I hear his songs..other gals would just fall on your feet hehe..

THE ONE

Words of romance used to flow through fingers of a naive gal
like a stream after a heavy rain
now the only words she can think of are full of hate and pain

What brought this unexpected change
the gal who used to see things in vivid colors
now views everything as dull and lifeless

Blame the one promised heaven but brought hell
Blame the one who promised smiles but brought tears
blame the one who promised to always care
but now forever gone no longer there

all that is left of the gal
is an empty shell with a mask of smiles for a face
trapped forever with baggage of shattered dreams

If u are asking urself who is that poor gal
who couldn't be free
Look no further
cause the gal I'm writing about is ME

Perfect Me/Ordinary Me

No I don't want to put on make up
So would you please just shut up
So what if u want me to look pretty
I don't want to suffer for beauty


No I don't want to wear that super short skirt
when will you stop being a jerk
i am perfectly happy in my jeans
please just stop being mean


No I don't want to have perfect hair
So why do u even care
Where's that guy that I loved before
I don't even know you anymore


You want me to be the perfect me
but that is someone I don't want to be
Please stop comparing me with every girl you see
I just want to be ordinary me

TEARS

Droplets of tears starts to stain my cheeks
As i discover the answers that I seek
how could I be so easily deceived
by all the lies that you weaved

How I hate these tears that are flowing
tears that proves my heart is breaking
but you don't even care that I'm hurting
Not a single remorse & now you are leaving

I believed that you are the one for me
that forever we are meant to be
love is just a word without meaning
Now all i am left with are tears and broken dreams

WHY MAN U WILL WIN THE EPL(and I am saying this reluctantly)

I don't understand why Liverpool who played really well on Sat just lost and this is second time that this is happening..I really seriously don't get it..its one of the biggest mysteries in the world...Man u was like just like excess baggage throughout the game & I can only see 1 team playing which is Liverpool. I really hate a team that played badly wins based on luck rather than playing good football. If I wanted a game that depended on luck, I rather go buy 4D..I suspect that all the luck that MAN U & Chelsea have is due to a visit to the "bomoh"(medicine man)hehe
So this is why Man united will win:

1)The "bomoh" will dispel any major injuries from happening to the MAN U players especially their important players such as Ryan giggs,christiano ronaldo,Edwin van der sar etc

2)The Man united "bomoh" is more powerful than Chelsea so no matter what chelsea do they can't curse Man U into failing to grab at least a point in the remaining matches or trying to snatch Man u luck away

3)Man u's "bomoh" have cursed Chelsea important players especially John Terry to be more prone to injuries.

The reasons above are just me trying to look at the humourous side of the title race cause I'm just sick of Liverpool losing to teams that playing badly haiz..

SINGLES RULES! MAYBE NOT..

I was juz reading my previous post(Wedding of the year)..I know it kinda lame to read your old posts but its good insight on how you feel at that time compared to now...SO rite now i'm feeling..mayb singles dun really rule after all heehe sorry to all singles out there this mayb a betrayal but mayb its the after effect of not the D-day but the V-day..and i might change my mind again tommorow hehe..the reason i'm saying this is b'cause i was out on valentine's day meeting my fren of coz(who would be crazy enough to be by themselves in town on v-day man..unless u think torture is ur fave thing to do hehe) well..my fren was late for like 1/2 hr and i was like an idiot waiting but i was able to do some ppl watching..of coz i feel like puking with all the flowers all ard me and the displays of affection which i definitely do not want to see..i was thinking look all these happy ppl but this would only last as long as the roses..(hehe tats the cynic in me talking and also b'cause i was feeling pissed off) but the more i look at these ppl the more I feel that at least they are allowed this 1 day of total happiness, love and caring even if it might not be everlasting..i mean these feelings that u only feel with sumone really special that is not ur family or friends(not tat i'm saying u can't feel happiness, love and caring frm ur family & frens but u know wat i mean) and they do really look truly happy..i look back and i dun think i have ever look that happy... everyone deserve to be tat happy even if its juz for a while..tat y i'm saying SINGLES RULES!? MAYBE NOT....

LIVERPOOL!

Liverpool is really a team that you hate to love and love to hate..Tat is wat i feel abt my fave team in EPL...I mean sometimes they played great like the match against newcastle which i definitely think they should win and yesterday match against Barcelona which i think they did not play great but they won..But tat is wat i love abt them....they are so unpredictable..and tat makes the matches they play more exciting..I think they are really lucky against Barcelona cause Barcelona was not playing great and their keeper had a bad day..and liverpool defence is sloppy yet again but luckily Reina had a great day :)..(man sumtimes i really feel like choking the hell out of the liverpool defence) But it was a good match yesterday because as soon as craig bellamy scored to make it even juz before 1/2 time i knew it was game on and liverpool got a chance to win it or at least get a draw..there's some moments of brilliance from barca like the moment when barca shot on goal which (unluckily for Barca but luckily for liverpool) hit the post and Deco goal is wonderful...but the amazing split second read of the game from Craig bellamy and the UNEXPECTED link up with Riise was really sweet..(actually at tat time i was half way cursing softly Dirk Kyut for missing at close range before yelling softly in joy heehe) Now I can't wait for the 2nd leg and its at Anfield..heehe BRING IT BARCA :-)

ONLY WHEN I'M WITH U

Only when i'm with u
Can time stand still but to pass by so fast
Be relaxed but stressed
be happy but scared

Only when i'm with u
tat the darkness seem to turn bright
I could talk to u all through the night
I only need u to be by my side

Only when I'm with you
I can feel like this
full of wonderful yet conflicting feelings
Yet why am i still hesitating
to accept the heart that u r giving

HOPE!!

Guess what??!! I juz realise that I'm feeling really upset & need someone to talk to but there's no one that i could tink of that I could call..Isn't that kinda sad...does tat mean I'm all alone here..this could be what my life would be like..where everyone have moved on but I'm stuck right here still trapped behind my mask...behind the wall that I have built for my protection..thinking wat the hell I don't need anyone i'm juz fine by myself..but now these walls which serve to protect me have become my prison..been hoping that someone will break through the wall but I could never find someone with the patience or willingness to do it..I have tried to break through the walls myself and I need time to do it..but no one seem to want to wait for me...So what should I do now???I'm feeling so tired..Feel like giving up..but i can't give up cause I still can feel that dim sense of hope...I guess as long as I can feel hope..it's not the end..cause hope always give you something to look forward to...or maybe I'm juz trying to see the glass as half full when actually it's already empty...

NOT MEANT TO BE!!

I guess that now is just too late
Maybe it was decided by fate
I never appreciated you
Even though your love is true


Now that u have gone away
I keep on missing you every day
All i have left is regrets
I have no choice but to forget


I hate myself for causing tears in your eyes
I pray and hope you'll be happy
Even though you and me are not meant to be

THESE GAMES THAT PEOPLE PLAY...

What are these games that people play

Games that cause so much pain

No one ever want to lose control

that is when these games get old...



Some are so submissive

that they can't do their own thinking

Others think that they are superior

that they can't ever admit their error...


These games that people play

have a lot to do with give and take

Only when people stop being fake

the games will then go away...


So take control of your destiny

Within you must have faith

Only then you could get away from

these games that people play....

----So can you guess what the games that ppl play is about?Tell me your opinion and I'll tell what inspired me this poem----Hope to hear what you think abt it!!!

ONLY ME

Never knew i could feel like this
each night it's u that i miss
with time my love start to grow
and my tears too begin to flow

i dunno why i feel this way
cause i know you dun feel the same
i hope these feelings would vanish away
but deep inside i know it is here to stay

the more i tried to deny what i felt
the more our memories appear in my head
i feel so confused and helpless
only you can cure this craziness

I pray for the day that u will see
that the one you've been looking for is me
then nothing will keep us apart
and there only me in your heart...

Can you keep a secret???

Hmmm....I just finished reading this book called 'Can you keep a secret' by Sophie Kinsella...It's really an enjoyable and funny book..I recommend this book for you all to read...This story is about a gal who blurted out all her secrets to a stranger when she thought she's gonna die cause the plane is crashing....but the twist is that the stranger is actually her boss but she didn't know it....To know more...go read the book lah..heheh

Actually this book made me think...every one has secrets...like how you really hate sumthing but can't say it cause it will hurt ppl feelings....But I'm goonna go for it and tell u all my secrets

1)I sumtime wish that I'm a boy cause boys seem to have more freedom
2)I'm actually a die hard romantic that is waiting to be swept off my feet
3)I get jealous of couples even though I always say that I like being single
4)I envy my sister(the 3rd one) a lot cause things seem to be perfect for her...got a beautiful voice,pretty face and she can make frens so easily
5)I really love flowers especially pink roses although i always say to my sis it's waste of $$$(tat's the jealousy talking)
6)I hate it when ppl call me cute
7)I always secretly wish I could be bad juz to shock ppl heheheh
8)I have a phobia of getting cut by a sharp object(My theory is that mayb in my past life i'm killed by a sharp object)
9)The thing I fear the most:facing rejection(that's why i hate job interviews)
10)I always tot that g-string is really obscene and uncomfortable( i can't understand why ppl would want to wear them)

AND MY BIGGEST SECRET is........YOU DON'T REALLY THINK THAT I WOULD TELL YOU THAT WOULD YOU.....HEHEHEH

Precious things in life!!

What are the most precious things in life?
the anwers are different for everybody
But is you ask me then i'll say
the most precious things in life are free
and they are not even material things

A proud smile of my parent
The shared laughter with my friends
MY FUN Family outings
A hug from my love one *wink*(although i dun have any rite now heheh)
My satisfaction from a job well done
Stupid and silly fights with my siblings
Suprises on my birthday
A phone call or sms from a long lost friend
The time I feel daring enough to bend a rule and no one found out heheh
The time I lend a listening ear to someone
Lend a shoulder for someone to cry on
Sleeping with my cutie cats
Playing with my brothers,nieces or nephews(It's like being a kid again hehe)
Watching sunrise/sunset
Seeing a rainbow
Making a wish on a shooting star
Swimming in the sea

As you can the most precious things are really simple and most important of all they are free..So dun hesitate go start thinking on your precious things in life and tell me about IT:-)

Stress...The good and the bad!!!

Stress is one word that could make ppl tremble with fear or giddy with excitement not sure I belong which category but I'm leaning toward the giddy with excitement category although I never had headaches due to excitement but I do get the occasional burst of gut wrenching headaches when I'm stressing hehhe...I think everyone need stress and the pressure to get the job done...Imagine if there's no stress at all,nothing will ever get done.Ppl at my sip[my sch attachment which is kinda pathetic ,got no pay
:(] had been on my case saying that i've been working too hard and making them look bad even my team leader says that i'm giving him stress for being so hardworking...I dun get it...It is bad to work hard and get things done??how absurd!!!I juz dun like to waste time dilly dally and like getting thing done fast....so that i won't be stressed later...btw do you guys noe there's different stages of stress....the worst case of stress could affect your well-being and kill you...I juz dun want my stress to get to that stage and get killed....but I dunno mayb i should juz take thing easy and amble along like everyone else...And before i knew it, i'm dead hehee..But i guess i do thrive on stress cause each time i get things to do,I'll get a thrill of adrenaline....Isn't that weird of me hehhe

Stop matchmaking!!

I just dun get it!!So wat if I have been single for almost 6 yrs....That does not give everyone I noe the privilege of introducing their single,available and desperate guy frens...I love the way that I am now...I'm not miserable at all...People think that by being single is not a choice but it is a choice for me...I wouldn't really think that I'm able to sacrifice my freedom for any guy cause relationship requires plenty of sacrifices especially my freedom and time...So unless there some guy out there that can allow me to be with him without sacrificing the freedom that I have,able to make me laugh all the time and a Liverpool fan.Of course I understand that some time would definitely be spent on my guy but he must not expect me to drop everything just b'cause he says so.I have a life too and I deserve to live it.To all the matchmakers out there this is the type of guy that I like.So good luck in finding the guy for me...Trust me you all are going to need badly..How I know that?that b'cause i've trying to find him too and it took me almost my whole life now.All I have to say now is HAPPY SEARCHING!!!:-)

Back again...

If anyone had notice it has been quite a long time since a new post was written on my blog..Tat's b'cause my modem had been down for a while so i was unable to write the blog as often as i like hehe...dun worry now i got it fixed i'm gonna write as often as i can...nothing amazing happening in my life rite now....I truly wish that my life could do with a little more magic.....like falling in love...u noe its been such a long time since i like a guy...i mean truly to like a guy and go out on a date...its been hard... i'm not looking 4 pity if u think that's wat i'm looking 4...i doing juz fine on my own....its juz tat sumtimes i do get lonely or i hav sumting great or sad to share,i realise tat i have no one to share it wif...tat's kind of sad..its not tat i dun try but i juz can't find sumone tat could make me feel like wanting to be with him...i date but when i'm out,i wish tat i was sumwhere else and there making boring small talk

GUESS WHO'S BACK!!

Hi ppl!It's me.....I'm back....This is the first week of sch and I'm already swamped with things to do....got to do research for an assignment.....study for E Maths 3 quiz next week.......need to understand words that have no meaning for the MCT problem based learning.....Yup..the stress is back again and it's just the 1st week.....WHAT A WONDERFUL LIFE I'VE GOT.....ALL WORK NO PLAY....i'm sorry that u guys have to read abt this....but i've got to let go sumwhere 'cause if not i'll go crazy!!!My birthday went great....I went to escape theme park with thee of my good friends and i shouted/screamed/holler/all of the above in all the rides.....It's was fantastic...although the rain did dampen our spirit a bit cause we didn't managed to play the go-kart....but our spirits went back up when we sang karaoke....As you can see i celebrated my b'day by making plenty of noise heheh...maybe it's b'cause i'm a quiet gal by nature and i need to unleashed my wild side hehe

FINALLY IT'S OVER.!!! TIME TO P.A.R.T.Y

Sorry for not updating my blog for quite sometime....It's juz that i'm busy studying like crazy for my exams and now the worst is partly over but not yet....THERE's STILL THE RESULTS>>>dun really noe if i'll do great cause sum of the questions does suck and pretty damn hard but all i got to do now is juz wait and of course p.a.r.t.y at the same time rite....but it might get a little boring staying at home doing nothing that's why i'm planning to find a job and get some $$$ to go shopping and that will be the icing on the cake ladies and gentlemen heheh btw it might be quite sometime before i'll update my blog again cause my internet is down...and since its the sch holidays you dun expect me to come to sch juz to update my blog rite....NO WAY i'm gonna do that NEVER..pretty sick of this sch actually now although i might miss it later during the holidays...SO...so long people and have a wonderful life......Delaila here....over and out...heheh

mY FaMILY AnD i

Feeling quite good today...everything is going on great...just finish my java presentation today and it's not as hard as i tot it would be...the last weekend is wonderful too..I ate with my whole family yesterday and spent the whole sunday together...you might think wat's the big deal and how lame this gal is to spent her weekends with her family....but to me this is really a big deal cause it's really rare for my family to spent time together as most of my family members are busy with their own stuffs.And it's really sad cause ppl take spending time with their family member for granted and prefer to spent time with their bf/gf or frens....as a results kinship began to drift apart and family members became strangers living under one roof.....and would only start to regret when their family members are gone....this is a scary tot for me and I hope it will never happen to me... tat is why i make an effort to ask my parents and siblings abt their day and if they are going out,i ask them where they are going...but too bad sumtimes they mistook my concern, they think that i'm trying to be a busybody...especially my dearest sisters...it does hurt when they say that but its ok...i understand...i will still continue to talk to them cause i really care...My family is really important to me...They are more important to me than my friends and boyfren(if I have one heheh) cause to me, frens and boyfrens come and go but family is FOREVER....no matter wat they always be by your side even if you dun care abt them.SO TAKE SOME TIME AND TALK TO YOUR FAMILY CAUSE THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES YOU CAN TURN TO WHEN YOU ARE IN TROUBLE...;-)