Countdown to my favourite Hari Raya songs

Hi Everyone..Seeing that there's almost about 1 week left to Hari Raya, I decided to do a countdown to my fave hari raya songs and also to drum up the excitement for Raya(which is getting harder each year cause I'm no longer getting the zakat but instead I have to give it out hehe..I guess it is a good thing that I'm giving zakat and combined with my steadfast fasting so at least maybe some of my sins will be forgiven :P)

So here are my top 5 songs for RAYA!!

Song at no. 5
SELOKA HARI RAYA..

This song reminded me of the time where I had to participate my school Hari Raya celebration with my malay language classmates. Needless to say it went horribly wrong cause none of us could dance the traditional malay dance but we did it anyway to have fun and just for memories sake.(If I'm not wrong, it was our last year in Secondary school). The dance was made up of 6 couples and at one point of the dance, each couple was to separate and to form 2 lines consisting of all girls and guys. But I think my partner didn't get that memo and when we start to separate out, my partner decided to follow me looking absolutely clueless..I had to point him to the right direction while making it look like it was part of the dance(I don't think I succeeded cause the whole place was laughing by then). But luckily, my partner reacted and quickly join his line. I did the whole dance giggling cause I don't know why but I find the whole situation very hilarious. It is safe to say that is end of my "short" career as a malay dancer hehe ;) but because of that event, this song never fail to make me smile.



Song no. 4
BALIK KAMPUNG

Hehe even though I don't really have a kampung to go back to during Raya. But I just love the chorus of this song. Yet again a song that everyone knows especially the chorus..All together now "Balik kampung..ooohh..balik kampung"



Song no. 3
AIR MATA SYAWAL

This songs always reminds me that Hari Raya is not only about celebrating that we have done the fasting for 1 month but it is also about remembering those who have left us or those who are far away from us.



Song no. 2

SUASANA HARI RAYA

This song by Anuar Zain and ellina is one of my favourite raya song simply because everyone knows this song. Me, my sisters and my cousins will be singing this song in the back seat when we used to go out visiting our relatives together in my uncle's van and sometimes the adults will join in as well. Hehe we especially love the part
" Asyik bersembang pakcik dan makcik, hai duit raya lupa nak diberi" Bring back plenty of good memories :)



Song no. 1

SATU HARI DI HARI RAYA

My favourite song of all time for Raya. This song never fails to make me feel the spirit of Raya. Love to play this song especially when baking cookies. To me this song encapsulate(wow, such a big word) what Hari Raya is all about. K lah enough of me yapping here..Just click play and enjoy the song ;)

Liverpool 2 Manchester United 1

Liverpool 2 Manchester United 1

oh..yeah!! Hehe I was doing my happy dance when the final whistle was blown. This was totally such an unexpected win and that's what made it a much sweeter victory.
When Man U scored within the 3 mins after the kick-off. Smses from my Man u friends starts flooding in telling me to get ready for a trashing. To be honest, I was mentally prepared to get trashed too since we got no Gerrard, no torres and thay are only missing Ronaldo with Berbatov being a more than able replacement to get the required goals.

And then this happened:




I couldn't believe my eyes, finally the luck that have always been shining on Man U whenever we meet is back on us. From then on, I could see the Liverpool began to push on to get the winner. Alonso and Mascherano started to grew in confidence and began to control the midfield. Our new guy Reira start to terrorise the left flank with some fancy flicks and turns(I love it ;)) and Liverpool is starting to look like their old self. Not the duplicate team that has been playing in the last two games.

In the second half, Man U start to look lost and had to bear waves of attacks from the Reds. A major mistake by Ryan Giggs and the perseverance of Mascherano lead to the 2nd goal scored by Ryan Bable, our very own super-sub with 13 mins left. I was praying by then and was hoping that Man U will not get an equaliser. I guess it worked cause Liverpool left the field with 3 points and finally the curse of not being able to beat Man U is finally lifted and it was done without Gerrard and Torres. Guess we are no longer a two man team ;)

For those who have missed the match:



For all Liverpool fans out there(I'm sure you are feeling the same way at that time):




Enjoy the win everyone!! Savour it cause it has been a long time coming ;) YNWA!

One of the Best Date of my life ;)

I just realised that after you have been out there dating for a while, things will get a bit routine and well soon all the standards that you have set for yourself have seem to drop cause you no longer expect it to happen. I have always made the effort of doing different things on my dates but it should be a two-way street, I can't always be the one deciding what we should be doing on the weekends. And I definitely hate conversations which goes like this:

Me: so what's the plan for this weekend?
Guy: Hmm me anything..What you want to do?
Me: I thought you are asking me out so you should have something planned.
Guy: Hmm no plans leh..not sure what u want to do..
Me[Feeling pissed off]: Ok..Thanks for the effort put in planning the date..but I have to wash my hair during the weekend.
Guy: huh??wash hair need both weekend?(not realising that I'm pissed off)
Me: Arrgg!!
Guy: Why are u so angry? having PMS?

I immediately put down the phone without even bothering to answer his idiotic questions.

Yes, that's right this conversation happened to me before and till today he still don't get why am I so pissed off. Is it so hard for men to shower a bit of attention to the ladies?

In a guys' mind(derived from the dates I've been to ;)) the equation of good dates goes like this:

Dates = Dinner + Movie(if action/sci-fi movie, even better)

In a girls' mind(for me at least)

Dates = Good conversation + effort in making me feel special + plenty of sincerity

Guys always associate dates with dinners and movies or if they are feeling a bit romantic, chocolate/flowers are thrown into the equation. But for the girls, they just want to have good conversation and wants to feel special no matter if the date just turn out to be a nearby visit to starbucks ;)(This happens to me before too)

And this leads me back to memory lane where I had one of the best dates in my life ;)
This happens in secondary school which just shows that best dates in life doesn't have to be expensive

I used to be such a bookworm in secondary sch and I love reading so much(Yes, that was when I'm in my nerdy phase which is still ongoing), so this guy whom I was going out with planned this really special date for our anniversary. He wouldn't tell me what we'll be doing so I just thought it will be another dinner & movie date. But to my surprise, he brought me to Borders and asked me to pick any book I like. I was so surprised because it was so unexpected. I still have that book cause looking at it always bring back good memories.(Its one of those buffy the vampire slayer book cause at that time i'm a big fan of buffy too ;P) He then brought me to his house and told me that his mom has prepared a meal for us on his request(I guess he didn't know how to cook but i'm still impressed by the way). And after a good meal, we just spend the whole day at his house reading, with me laying my head on his lap reading my new buffy book and him reading his Archie comics. I remember feeling completely special and blissful even though we were not talking at all the whole time just enjoying the companiable silence, hearing the sound of his breathing and his occasional laughter.

Yup, that was one of the best dates I have experienced. I know it might sound really boring to some of you but to me, this boy is willing to put in extra effort just to do things that he know I will enjoy the most. And I really appreciate him for that cause by giving me that experience, it taught me that dates doesn't not have to be expensive or just be about movies and dinners. Its the thoughts and sincerity that counts ;)

Obsessive addiction

To make matters clear, the poem below is not about me..I don't get why people always assume that the poems I wrote is derived from my life :) So sorry to disappoint but I truly have a boring but blissful life, not that inspiring at all ;p

Ok, back to the topic, the poem was actually inspired by this song by Ashanti called "The way that I love you" hence the title of my poem. Yup, I do get inspired by random things like songs ;) What I like about the song is the way it showcase how obsessive love could be. Love is not just about the roses but it is about the thorns too and that is the reality of life.

In a relationship, there is no way that both parties could love each other equally the same way but they could love each othe equally in their own way.

I have some guys friends who asked me "why does girls always need verbal assurance that they are being loved. Doesn't action speak louder than words"

I told them that I completely agree with what they are saying(which seem to shock them, I'm not so sure why hehe) But I explained to them that it is the same way that guys always need physical assurance that they are being loved which we girls don't really get.

My friends and I had this discussion some time back. How do we know that we are in love? and I mean in love with someone not falling in love with someone which is completely another different topic.

After a long discussion, we realised that we know that we are in love with someone when we willingly do things that we won't normally do without any complaints and that we rather spend time with that person instead of doing the things we love. That is also how we will know that our other half is in love with us ;) And yes, love is all about sacrifice.

Sometimes we can't help it but do things that we know will make that someone happy. It is in our nature to care and in our nature to adapt.

But knowing this doesn't mean that we have to completely change ourselves to suit our partner..Changes which will make us be a better person is one of the best things that can happen in a relationship. But if you change into someone that you are not that is completely wrong..If your life revolve around your partner all the time and you don't know how to live without him/her around, I'm sorry to say my friend, that is not love. That is what known to me as an obsessive addiction.

Obsessive addiction happens when you completely lose yourself to make someone happy. You get so scared of that person leaving you that you forget that you have your own life to lead and it is a trap that will sink you deeper and deeper till you look at yourself in the mirror and you couldn't recognise that person anymore.

So go on, fall completely in love with someone and don't hold back but do not fall into the trap of obsessive addiction.





Delaila here signing off, over and out ;)

The way that I love you

will you miss me
the way that I miss you each time you are not there

will you see my face
the way that I always see yours before I lay myself to sleep

will you look back at all the memories and smile
the way that I do when I'm thinking of you

will you ever love me the same way that I love you

THE DAY I BETRAYED MY BEST FRIEND

Yes, I betrayed my best friend. I betrayed her trust and her faith in me. I did it knowingly and willingly. Even though I knew it is going to cause her pain and I know for sure that this is going to change my friendship with her. But still did it anyway..I did it for my own selfish reason..I just want my best friend back..

Imagine you have been friends with someone for 12 long years and have been together throughout the good and bad that life have to offer. Imagine the bubbly and outgoing girl that you thought you had known so well suddenly became a whole different person altogether. A person that you know wasn't her and there is a chance to get back the bubbly amazing girl that you used to know. So can you understand now why i had to do it? Why I had to betray her?

It upsets me a lot and makes me feel really miserable that this illness is taking my best friend away from me..She had been having these episodes for a while and I did nothing..I refuse to believe that she is sick and would rather believe in a denial than to face the cold truth.

One day, I no longer could deny it cause I felt that she is no longer there with me and she had turned into another person...I felt so helpless then..I knew that she needed help before she gets any deeper and before she hurts herself or hurts someone else. The only way for her to get help is for me to betray her...So I have to harden my heart and lie point blank in her face so that she will get help she needed.

And she being the girl that she is thought of nothing when I told her we were going to have lunch at IMH..And that is truly the ultimate trust that one could have for a person and I betrayed that..

It hurts me the most when I saw her all tied up on her bed because she refuses to co-operate and turned violent..With pleading eyes, she asked me "why did you bring me here? You don't think that I'm crazy right?"

With tears brimming in my eyes, I told her "No, I don't think you are crazy..You are just sick. The doctors here will help you get better"

So with that, I betrayed my best friend for my own selfish reason of wanting her back. And till now, I still don't know if what I did was right or wrong..But sometimes in life, there are choices that you have to make but you don't want to..And this is one of the hardest choices, I have to make in my life.

Are you happy?

Are you happy? It sounds like the simplest question on earth..but is it really? Most people will answer "Yes, I am" or "Of course, I'm happy". But are they really happy? or are they just answering that question with an expected answer..

Happiness means different things to many people. For most people, they equate happiness with power and money.. But if u really think about it, does the most powerful and wealthiest people in the world look truly happy?

For some people, happiness just mean that they are contend with what they have.
But this kind of thinking will only get misunderstood by others of being complacency or not ambitious enough. But what they don't know is that these people are normally the happiest people on earth because they will always just live for today so they will savour everything that they get and they are thankful for it.

There are majority of people in this world who hate their jobs and always feel that they are meant to do something big/different in their life. While it is good to dream big, at least hold on tight to what is important to you right now so that you will not lose your soul while you are chasing your dreams.

Don't know why I am feeling a bit philosophical today? I guess I was just being affected by the chat I had yesterday...Anyway the song below is dedicated to that someone I had a chat with yesterday..Sometimes when things doesn't go your way, all you have to do is smile :)

Confessions of a villain

I slay, I slash, I kill
I do all that for the thrill
It fills me up with glee
when people starts to flee

Why so serious?
I'll always say
Time to call the bat
I can't wait to play

This permanent smile
It has brought me fame
Let's play a little game
Can you guess my name..

villain

Euro 08: Germany 3 Portugal 2

Am I the only one left feeling being mislead by all the hype of this game before hand? The match that was described to be a duel between flair and efficiency. Where was the flair? The efficiency of the German machine was definitely there but the Portugal went for an early vacation yesterday especially after the two goals from the German before half time. The Portugal team look totally lost in the match and they had no ideas at all on how to combat the efficiency of the Germans.

Although Nuno Gomez managed to snatch a goal right before the half time whistle, it was back to square one after a horrible marking by the Portugal defence, allowed Michael Ballack to head home the 3rd goal(which was awfully similar to the 2nd goal they conceded against Klose).

That was when I decided the match was not worth sacrificing my sleep cause the winner was so obvious from then on. Portugal team had no fire, no spirit, no passion all which are required to conquer the cold efficiency of the germans.

So congrats to the Germans for progressing to the semis and to Portugal, I just have one word disappointing.

I wish that PSP could be banned?!!

Hehe all the avid gamers out there is going to kill me..But I really wish that PSP could be banned..Not entirely of coz but just when you are out with other ppl like your friends and girlfriends/boyfriends..I actually think that it is kinda rude to be playing your PSP while you are out with other ppl and it really make you look like you are very anti-social or the company you are with is not as interesting as the games you are playing..

This observation was done while I was on train home..There was a few couples sitting opposite me in the train and guess what..

Yup, the guys were busy playing with their PSP that they forget their girlfriends are right beside them..I could really see the fed-up faces of the girlfriends...and I kinda pity them cause Well, it is bad enough when your bf wanted to stay at home cause he absolutely have to advance to the next stage of whatever PC games he playing but for him, to bring along the game with him after he has agreed to go out with you must be the absolute worst feeling. He might as well don't go out with you at all..Being a girl, I can understand that you like to spend time with your other half but if he is too busy playing his PSP, It must have felt as if he cared more about the PSP.

So I would like to tender this suggestion where all PSP should be left at home so that quality time can be spent with ppl you love ;) and world would definitely be a better place to live ;)

Sundays are meant for Weddings

For those who knows me well, they will know not to ask me out on Sundays cause i would 95% say no..Hehe..Normally, this would be automatically understood until one fine day, this question was brought to me..

Are you sure that you really have to go to weddings on almost every sunday of the month?

Sadly my answer is yes..its not that i'm anti-weddings but if you went to one malay wedding before then you have been to them all cause basically its all the same hehe[This is not meant to be racist just a tongue in cheek observation ;P].

I find this next question really hilarious

Innocently, my friend remarked "Wow then you must have many relatives.."

I couldn't stop laughing when I heard it..

So I told my friend "To be honest, most of the time that I go to the wedding, I don't even know the bride/groom. I go there just for the food hehe"

Most of the weddings I went to are friends of a friend of my parents..My mum have no one to accompany her to these weddings and of course I'm forced to be her escort..

My observations after going to so many weddings, one question is sure to be asked by strangers whom I have just met "when am I getting married?/When it's my turn to get married"

And this seem to be the basic conversation starter at most weddings hehe. For most malays, this is quite normaly but for others, it is kinda shocking to hear hehe

So how do you ans this question to a complete stranger?

Just ans politely with a smile "Blum ada jodoh lagi Cik". Translation: "Haven't found the right one yet"

Which is the standard answer given by most youngsters at weddings.

Actually weddings is a good way to immerse yourself and experience different cultures.

And again in my tongue in cheek observation of other cultures weddings which I have been to:

Malay: Noisy, nosey, free all u can eat buffet[hehe if you are not pai seh to take 2nd helpings] and Karaoke(if you are brave enough to show ppl your hidden singing talents)

Chinese: Boring(imagine listening to the priest preaching for almost 1 hr before it came to the "I do") but u get to eat good food cause the reception is normally held in hotels/country club and you get to see the bride & groom change into many different outfits ;)

Indian: Quite rowdy (especially when some guests had too much to drink) ;) and if they serve the food buffet style then you have to queue for the food cause the wedding starts only when every one have been seated. It is also quite fun cause normally the bride and groom will get sabo by their friends/family members ;)

This is not to say that all malay, chinese, indian weddings are like what I describe above. These are just the weddings that I have experienced ;)

Thank God for the friends that I have

Do you know what it takes to really know someone? Its really simple..Just recall all the times that you are being a bitch/jerk/upset/depressed/angry and the person who is always there with you during those times..

Yup that is the person who knows you well and that is truly the person that you can depend on..Everyone wears a mask so when you are not in a good mood, that is normally the time when you expose your real self cause you just won't bother to hide anymore[Unless you are the type of person who is always in bad mood then this doesn't apply to you ;)].

I am really thankful that I have friends that I could depend on..Friends who meets me willingly in the early hours of the morning just cause I said I need someone to talk to..Friends who are willing to be blunt so that I wouldn't deceive myself and allow me to face the cold hard truth. Friends that I could cry on their shoulders and they wouldn't think that I'm being drama queen/cry baby..

Thank God for the friends that I have..

Empty the full cup and you'll be free

Someone once said to me
Empty the full cup and you'll be free
Memories please leave
and let me be in peace

Albert from Hitch once said
If being miserable is the only way to stay connected
then being miserable is who I'm supposed to be
but is that the right way to go
Is that the life I'm supposed to live

Too tired to think
Everything is now so confusing
but that phrase keep popping
Empty the full cup and you'll be free

LIVERPOOL 1 CHELSEA 1

HOW UTTERLY HORRIBLY UNBELIEVABLE!! I was just counting down the seconds when this happened:



I think all Liverpool fans were cursing RIISE when this happened me included..I just so couldn't believe it..Why use your head when u can kick the ball and let it be out of play..WHY!!

The Hero which help us defeat Barca had just became the villian..And Liverpool was playing great and they really deserve to win this match..But well what can I say..nothing is set in stone in football and absolutely anything can happen as this has proved..But all is not lost, we still have the 2nd leg at Stamford bridge..

I hope that MAN U will do us a favour and make the Chelsea players run around in circles and tire them out so that we'll could take advantage of their tiredness..wishful thinking i know..but well i just have to take what i can get..

HOW UTTERLY HORRIBLY UNBELIEVABLE!!

YNWA

Kekasih Gelapku=> My dark sweetheart

Kekasih Gelapku=> My dark sweetheart

Hehe the english translation sounds a bit funny but the song is great. You see, i rarely listen to Malay songs so if a malay song managed to grab my attention then it is really that good..Actually this song is a typical jiwang(sentimental) malay song which I don't really love but the lyrics to the song is so super sad and deep. From the title itself, you definitely won't be able to guess what the song is about but as you listen on..You'll find yourself captivated by it..At least that's what happened to me..

Below are the lyrics of the song which made me fell in love with it once I heard it cause its so true :)

[chorus]Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

English Translation:
[Chorus]I'll love you more than anything
Even though nobody else knows about it
I love you to the deepest depth of my heart
Even though, you are just my dark sweetheart.


I know that I won't always be there for you
Whenever you are misssing me
I know that I won't be able to give you plenty of time in my life.

Believe that you are my love
that i have been searching for in my life
And only to you, I'll give the scraps of my love
for a long time in my life

Repeat chorus

So as you can see what I love about this song is that its is not promising the impossible but just what a man is able to give to his gal..and I think that is so much better that a man who promised you the heaven and earth but is not able to deliver..

Enjoy the song and tell me what you think ;)

Song lyrics | Kekasih Gelapku lyrics

A man out there is really proud to call me his gal

It's a funny story really...I was just minding my own business in the train when my "fren" called and was really excited about something..The train was going underground and due to poor reception, I can't really hear wat he was saying..IT actually sounded like he was under water hehe..I finally told him to slow down and take a deep breath cause he is making no sense at all to me..

He told me that he saw my letter in the NEW PAPER..actually it was his fren who was reading the paper and he accidentally noticed my name..and was pointing at that new paper saying that's my girl name..He was so super excited about it and keep pointing it out to all his colleague...Hehe I think actually he expects me to be as excited as him but i guess my reaction was pretty disappointing..I just went "is it?Hmm ok i'll buy the NEW PAPER later" He asked how come I'm not excited about this so I told him "Actually, the NEW PAPER published my letters many times before already hehe". Surprisingly to me, he became quite upset that I didn't share that with him. He said if he knew earlier, he'll collect all the letters and keep it as momentos..

I knew that he is 110% not interested in football cause his definition of football: 11 men chasing after one ball.How ridiculous is that? But him being him, he'll always come along with me whenever I have to watch a football match outside.(His excuse not safe for a girl to be at a bar/kopitiam full of men alone, actually I just think that he's jealous.) and always listen(in this case pretend to listen) whenever I need to vent about Liverpool. So to me, this is a very small thing that I dun think I want to "burden" him with it and that I dun think he's interested in anyway. But I guess I was wrong..Hmm you learn something new every day.

KOP newest HERO..

Learn the song by heart cause we are going to sing the song a lot..hehe

FERNANDO TORRES!! LIVERPOOL NO. 9!

YNWA..

This song is currently my favourite song..Why? because it has a very simple melody with meaningful lyrics..Sometimes that is all a classic song needs to be everlasting cause these kind of songs bring back the good memories whenever you hear the song ;) Well tat's my opinion only hehe..But well just listen to the song, sit back, enjoy and let the good memories roll ;)

CONTENTMENT

CONTENTMENT
some mistake it as lack of excitement
some mistake it as the ultimate boredom
some mistake it for sheer laziness

CONTENTMENT
everyone look everywhere it
everyone work hard for it
everyone really wish for it

CONTENTMENT
it is right there all along
if you know wat you are looking for
but it is human nature to want more
And the search for contentment never stops
So tell me now who is at fault?

ME a relationship Guru?

Its kinda weird but I recently noticed that many of my frens started coming to me for relationship advice..hehe Not to say that I'm an expert but I do have an interest in relationship stuff and always love reading about it (Books like Women from venus and Men are from Mars). That's where most of my poems are inspired from.. But I guess most of them came to me, more for a listening ear rather than advice..Why? I dunno maybe because I never break the carnal rule to listening which is not to share what you have just heard unless the person involved allow you to do so..

I had plenty of practice with my sisters..heehe i have kept lots of their secrets..So mayb that y it is like second nature to me to keep secrets and ppl feel safe as they know that what they are about to tell me will stay with me..

But lately, few of my frens had came to me with well, wat else but problems with their guys..And this was days after Valentine's day..I dun get why do guys these days do not know how to appreciate what they have and what do they actually want from their partners... I'm not here to judge but I feel like we are in the 21st century not in ancient times where men is always right..Ladies should stand up for themselves and made known of their unhappiness instead of keeping quiet...

Sometime I feel that couples nowadays really lack in communication..

I will sometimes ask my frens, what do they normally talk about with their partners when they go out..And the shocking answers is nothing much, talk abt the movie that they juz watch and wat to eat for dinner[This is a typical date in S'pore if u guys dunno]. I find that is so hard to believe because to me, conversation is key in a relationship if not, then how do u let the other party know how u are feeling..

That's y I always advise my frens who are facing relationship problems to talk it out and not to sugarcoat things..If u are not happy with something small, tell him/her immediately cause if you keep it to yourselves, that little unhappiness will grow to hate and that is how relationship fails..If u tell him/her at least they'll know the problem and try to change..OR worst case scenario, u tell him/her abt it and he/she still refuse to change, then at least u can say that you have given them a chance but it's still not working out..But if you both keep quiet and without knowing how each other is feeling and the relationship break down, u will somehow feel as if u are not given the chance to know why it failed and if there's something that you could have done to save it..

I also always believe that you should not stop being friends just because you guys are together..Being friends, allow u to tease each other without hurting each other feelings..Have u ever noticed how u might started out teasing/flirting with each other as friends and as soon as you guys become a couple, the teasing stops cause nobody ever bothers to make an effort any more..

So that is kinda my advice to my friends whenever they are talking abt their relationship problems but of course not all relationship is the same but they are definitely similar..

So just say you are angry when u are angry and keep flirting/teasing each other even though you are already a couple and maybe just maybe you'll built something to last ;)

Delaila here signing off ;)