Dear My Somebody

Dear Mr Somebody

Do you know that you make me smile..
Being with you just seems to make everything that I'm doing worthwhile

DEar Mr Somebody

Can you feel the positive vibes I'm sending you..
Your words of wisdom never fails to turn my grey skies blue

Dear Mr Somebody

Do you know that at times u drive me crazy..
Your antics never fail to frustrates me but at the same time they makes me happy

Dear Mr Somebody

Are you reading this?

I'm sorry for the outpouring of mushy feelings but I myself don't know why I'm writing this so let's just say that you inspired me

5683..Its more than juz numbers...

Initially when you told me its meaning..I told myself not to think much abt it..Its juz a word..and of course the place where you told me...is completely lacking in atmosphere..and it actually came out of the blue and I really didn't think much abt it ;)

Then yesterday out of the blue you asked me "Do you love me?" I was like "Duh, what do you think?" But like I said yesterday some things are better said out loud cause what you are feeling might not be what the other party is feeling..and u don't really want to assume and keep your hopes up ;) But I'm really glad we voiced it out..I felt such relief and juz complete joy..cause I've never expected this at all..And that made it so much more beautiful..

I'm such a simple gal..all I need is 5683 and U...

The difference between creep and Halo..Actually there's no difference both equal to you ;)

Remember that time at west coast, you told me that you feel like you are a creep juz like the song in the Rock band..How very silly..And at that time, I didn't say a word cause I was speechless that you would even think that abt yourself[hmm I don't think you remember it but its ok dun expect you to remember anyways :P].Anyway that conversation has etched in my head till now.



Just to refresh your memory,the song[Creep] goes like this

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here


But actually there's another song that I feel fits you perfectly..and it's called halo..



And it goes like this

Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I didn't how it happens or when it starts but all I know is this so many guys have tried to knock down those walls but failed..[You know abt it cause well I told you abt them before ;)]But i guess you juz accepted me with those walls and all and that's why bit by bit those walls starts to fall. I know that our relationship is different from others..And please don't think that I'm asking or expecting more from you cause you have given me everything that I need and more...You have given me the kind of joy that I've never felt before...The pure joy that I only feel when I'm with you..even if we juz meet up in the morning for 15 mins and that is enough for me to have a dopey smile on my face the entire day.[Don't believe can ask my colleagues hehe]

I'm sorry if lately you feel that I'm being clingy cause I've always initiate to meet you but the joy you have given me is quite addictive and I'm trying my best to cut it down and give you your own space. [You have never said anything but I can feel it :P]If you just need to stay at home and chill juz tell me and I'll understand ;)

And please don't feel pressurised or get upset or worried that your feelings are not as strong as mine. I don't really expect you to but of course it will be a bonus if u do :D To me, when you care about someone, you do it without expecting anything in return cause if you do then it will lose its purpose and meaning. So just continue being the incredible, wonderful,lovable person that you are and my silly boy...Happy..Happy Birthday!! Thanks for just being you and remember that I will always feel and see your halo ;)

The purpose of American Idol[to me at least]

I am watching the american idol while writing this and the reason why I like watching american idol is because it has introduce me to so many great songs that I have never heard before and most probably won't ever hear if its not for this show...And for this week I was really attracted to the song Megan sang "For once in my life". Although she sang it in a jazzy way[she sound like Duffy], I was really curious how the original actually sounds like. So I decided to google it and listen to the original. And guess what the original sound a lot better hehe..so click on the link and travel back to the 50's to Motown.. :)

The original version by Stevie Wonder



American Idol Megan's version



and david archuleta last season got my vote with this song.

The original version by John Farnham[See what I mean we'll never know abt this song if its not for Idol hehe]



American Idol David Archuleta Version

Teardrops on my guitar

I think almost everyone had a crush or an admirer who seem to be the one but he/she only see you as a friend. And how hard it is not to slap that someone in the face and say "I'm right here in front of you stupid..I can make you so much happier than him/her" [Yeah hehe..had that scenario in my head for few times in certain stages of my life before I have to admit but of coz I had never done that in real life..I'm not that crazy :P]. Anyways I came across this song while surfing in youtube and I think it describe perfectly..How someone would feel when they are in that situation..So go ahead click the video and enjoy :)

ROMANCE..is it over-rated or just misunderstood?

Actually this post is inspired by the stomp star blog titled Are Singapore Men romantic? and also by the one of the best weekend ever for me..Its a very interesting read especially when you are bored to death at work like me hehe...

Stomp star blog

Anyways why I decided to bring up this topic is of course because Valentine's day is right around the corner and also due to some misconceptions from few friends have romance. Some of them equate romance to candlelight dinner, expensive gifts, roses and romance should only happen on Valentine's day.

So while spending the whole early morning playing rock band and street fighter[And I beat him a couple of times hehe can never forget his expression when I finally beat him at something :P], a day of watching movie(Underworld in my case..how romantic rite with all the violence and gore hehe) and making fun of couples in a Valentine's couple pageant(as expected guys really suck at answering questions about their gfs) and a whole day of baking pineapple tarts with him and his nieces(keep reminding myself that patience is a virtue..his nieces are really active..got pretty tired playing with them but had lots of fun hehe) might not be considered the typical advanced Valentine celebration and seem not to be romantic at all for others....but to me it is one of the most romantic V. day for me. And guess what he didn't even planned any of it except for the pineapple tart part..So sometimes being spontaneuos can be lots of fun and I guess its because we are doing things that we enjoy most. Playing the PS3(For him), baking the pineapple tarts(For me) and movies(something we both enjoy).

So you see, for me its really simple, as long as I get to spend time with him it doesn't matter what we do and most impt of all, there's no candlelight dinner and roses involved. So I hope that maybe this post might get you thinking that what your other half really want is just time and you..

Me: So what was the hightlight of the weekend for you?
Him: Juz being with you..
[Was smiling like an idiot and it felt really great when I read that sms;)]

I'm such an easy gal to please..All I need is rock band, street fighter, movie, a valentine's couple pageant, baking pineapple tarts and you ;)

So happy V. day everyone..And share this special day with your loved ones[that includes friends and family ;)]

Delaila here Roger and out!!

Tong Hua, Fairy tale, Cinta Arjuna

I really love this song Tong Hua by Guang Liang...A great combination of simple melody and great lyrics. I actually 1st heard this song in its malay version(Cinta Arjuna by Aliff Aziz) and coincidentally someone sang the chinese version of it when we were out karaoke-ing...hehe quite surprise to hear my fave song of the moment being sung in chinese by him[I didn't even know that there's a chinese version and that the malay version originates from it]. So anyways with not much things to do at work, I surf the net and found out that there's a Korean and cantonese version too. This just shows that a great song will transcends all language barriers hehe..Anyway, enjoy the different version of Tong Hua starting from of course the original by Guang Liang ;)

Original version Tong Hua by Guang Liang[Chinese]



Malay version Cinta Arjuna by Alif Aziz



Korean version DongHwa by kim hyeong-joong



Cantonese version Tong Hua by Not sure who sang this hehe[Please tell me if you know who sang the cantonese version]

Moments

Moments
that is all it takes
a moment of joy
a moment of worry
a moment of realisation
a moment of understanding
a moment of fear
a moment of acceptance
a moment of madness
a moment of peace
a moment of chaos
a moment of gladness
a moment of confusion
best moment of all..a moment of bliss
And that is all it takes

A moment of worry on your face when you're scanning the crowd and you can't find me
A moment of anger on your face when you're taking out your phone to call me
Best moment of all..the moment of joy filling up your face when you finally saw me smiling

Yes that is all it takes just moments to make me realise how much you meant to me:)
The best thing is I'll always have these moments and no one can take them away :)

Women

Women
dazzling diamonds and glittering jewellery,
have won you illusory majesty..
But what's left around you is only snobbish poison,the odour of arrogance and alluring but fatal fragrance

Women
when you once again salute wealth,
hail fame and extol power,
please do not ask for the thrush which sang for you,
it has flown away because it has sung itself hoarse...
Its golden voice has perished for the sake of its real,
dignified and pure soul


I really like this poem from the taiwanese drama Meteor Garden.Actually I prefer it in chinese cause it sounds better hehe

Someone has been invading my deepest thoughts!!

HE TOLD ME THAT HE'S BEEN READING MY BLOG!!Both of them in fact!!Oh my god..I was so horrified especially with all the lovey dovey crap I've been posting lately..you must be thinking why should I be when what I'm posting is meant to be read by everyone so why not him..Well I had my 1st blog ever since my late 1st year/early 2nd year in poly and he never even once read it voluntarily unless I force him to hehe..I initially tried to get him on the blogging wagon and reluctantly he did but it lasted for abt 3 weeks i think hehe...So I thought putting out my thoughts in my blogs would be safe cause he won't be reading it..but unfortunately well I thought wrong... And since I know him so well, I knew that he's going to tease me on all the lovey dovey stuff I posted..[haiz now I can no longer act all aloof and mysterious :P since he now knows the effect he has on me and how much I actually cared abt him]. But after I did some thinking, I realised that this might not be such a bad thing after all..because I do have nothing to hide and I do express my thoughts better in writing than verbally so there are more pros than cons on this..But I only have one peeve on this, cause now he'll know about my thoughts but I won't know what he thinks of them as I said earlier, I knew him very well and knowing him, he'll never ever put down his comment on anything that I posted..So kinda unfair don't you think..Anyway if u are reading this, don't worry I won't be censoring my posts just because I know you might be reading them cause that would be defeating the purpose of my blogs which is just to put down everything that I'm thinking about and things that I need to vent out :)And so maybe now you'll get an idea how my complicated mind actually works ;)

Just for my football fans out there ;)

Hehe a bunch of ppl(Actually juz 1 person) have actually commented that they missed reading my views on the world of football..And since I juz love pleasing my fans..[Yes I know, I have no shame so what :P]]here are my thoughts on the happenings in the football world especially in a little place called Anfield :) [Sorry abt the lovey dovey crap being posted up lately, I'm wasn't myself for while and I think its still ongoing so bear with me hehe ;)]

Liverpool 2 Hull 2
I didn't actually watch the match cause was bz being a participant in a bachelorette party and since I'm surrounded by girls..I can't have any thoughts on football unless we are talking abt certain body parts of the players hehe[Are you thinking what I'm thinking hehe ;) obviously not.. cause i'm talking abt ABS here..the girls agree Beckham had the best ones but then they only know Beckham and Ronaldo..so quite redundant :P]..My bro who is Gooner gleefully msg me after the liverpool match had started ard 10 mins later saying Hull had scored...I was like "What!!how can that be..Oh god please..We need this win.."Apparently God had no time to listen to a silly Liverpool fan like me cause 10 mins later Mr reliable himself(Jamie Carragher) scored an own goal..[Information was received via my bro yet again]. I was already feeling like "Shoot, if even Carra scored own goal, looks like its not going to be our day "

But then 2 mins later this msg lifted my spirit up.

(Via SMS)

My bro: "Haiz boring..Gerrard scored"
Me: "Woo hoo..."


And again during the 32 min of the 1st half

(Via SMS)

My bro: "Stupid Hull, Gerrard scored again"
Me: "Yes ah, Can you smell what the KOP is cooking hehe"
My bro: "ape je merepek, k lah nnt adik msg kalo gerrard score lagi hehe"[Translation: nonsense..I'll msg if Gerrard scored again]

Was waiting for the sms that Liverpool scored again but too bad it never came..I guess I'm quite satisfied with a draw especially with all the top 4 matches ended with draws too..Well 1 point is better than nothing i guess and we could easily got nothing if not for Captain Marvel Mr Steven Gerrard ;)

A busy weekend of being a rock star, a contestant in an amazing race and being in someone else's shoes

My weekend seem to be getting better and better as time passes by :)

Well someone had to be on standby last weekend and I was kicking up a bit of a fuss when he told me that he had to stay in the office overnight.

Me: why do you have to sleep the office? Isn't it better to go home and rest..
Him: Actually staying in the office to play PS3 with my colleagues..
Me: What!! you crazy..work whole day still not tired ah..
Him: Need to relieve stress lah..Can you try put yourself in my shoes sometimes?
Me: Cannot your shoes too big ;P
Him: hehe very funny..I'm not kidding you know..since you always complain, why don't you come over to the office and see for yourself and on sunday, you can come along when I'm doing servicing
Me: Is that a challenge? Ok i accept :P but ur colleagues dun mind I come meh
Him: No, they dun mind..they need a singer.
Me: huh??

It turn out to be that I was recruited to be a lead singer for a band called "Solidsnake"[Lame, I Know :)]. Bassist: Peter. Drums: Kee. Lead Guitar: Darren..And the showstopper on lead vocal: ME hehe :P

I can't imagine jamming(virtually of course) in the middle of the night[at 2am actually and we played till morning hehe]. When I first start playing, I sucked really bad..Singing in a rock band is not that easy after all hehe..and I keep bringing my band stars down..But as we played and (with the guys encouragement and tips) I got the hang of it, we started to have fun.

Then came the song that made us all feel like real rock stars.."Living on a prayer" by Bon Jovi..I am a closet Bon Jovi fan so when this song came along[I was like Hell yeah, Time to rock it out :P] and it was like everything had come together perfectly...The feeling was really like being in the rock back and DARREN was perfect on the guitar solo..We played this song repeatedly cause it feel really good and it became our favourite song.

So that's how I became a rock star for a day.[or should I say night]



Anyways on Sunday, I came along with him to do his servicing and it was like being in the amazing race but Singapore version. So basically this is what happened, he get a call,if possible he'll try to solve the problem over the phone. If not, then we'll go to that place, did some troubleshooting and try to resolve the issue. We went to so many places on Sunday that I lost count..And it is like the amazing race cause we get to the place, fix the problem and go to our next destination and all the troubleshooting had to be done within 2 hrs.[Get it? In the amazing race, the contestants have to get their destination, do the challenge, get their clue and move on to the next destination.] We didn't even have time to have a proper meal cause the calls were coming fast and furious :) We only get to finish the servicing at around 10pm and by then I was totally shagged. But he was still working on one of his customer hard disk trying to resolve a virus issue.

It is amazing how much you'll learn about a person when you are able to put yourself in their shoes..What I've learnt is that he works hard but plays even harder...He does flirt when he's out there doing servicing[Did I get jealous?of coz but just a tiny bit cause I know its just harmless and well I already have a place in his heart so there's not need to be worried].

I managed to be a rock star and a contestant in an amazing race for just being in someone else's shoes specifically his shoes..and I find that's truly and opener and glad I had a chance to do it..But it'll be perfect if only I can find a way to fit him in my shoes ...hehe :P



Delaila here signing off

P/S: Something awful happened to my sis last friday but not sure if I should blog about it cause it's something that happened to her not me but thank god, she didn't get hurt..But just one thing to say: Girls please take percaution when coming back home at night and always be aware of ur surroundings. If you feel uneasy, call someone to take you home.

Falling in love..Now that's a scary thought...

I've always been scared of falling in love..To me, it is one of the scariest things in the world..Most of the time I try to convince myself that I'm not in love..Cause just the words "Falling in love" is scary..Have you ever wonder why its called falling in love? Its because when u r in love, its just like falling from certain height..U have no control over it and just have to go with the flow and hope that you land somewhere soft and cuddly or have yourself land on the hard concrete and break into million pieces just like Humpty Dumpty hehe..Maybe you'll say that I'm just a control freak. Well maybe that's true, I do love to be in control and really hate it when things don't go my way :P.. Well yeah I'm a brat so sue me :P

So why is it now me being a falling-in-love-phobic is posting all this lovey dovey crap lately hehe :P
The reason is cause I can't help it..all these sugary side-effects of falling in love is turning my brain into mush and I'm clearly not myself.I've turned totally like one of those chicks in a romantic comedy.[Obviously someone who I don't inspire to be] Having dopey smiles on my face without a reason..Getting positively giddy and looking forward to the weekend..Thinking of what to wear when meeting him..and getting all upset when he says he's too busy to talk..Somebody kill me now why am I behaving this way..this is so not me..All I can blame on is that I am experiencing all these horrible side-effects that you'll get when you are falling in love..


I keep waiting for the bubble that I'm floating in lately to burst and crash land me into the hard concrete floor..But it doesn't seem to be happening in fact everytime I think its going to burst..He'll do something to make my bubble soar even higher..Yes, I'm talking in metaphor..please don't take everything I wrote literally cause you'll never figure it out..[See, I'm turning into a b*tch too OMG].

To summarise this post, what I'm trying to say is I'm absolutely scared and possibly going to freak out soon..wondering what's going to happen next cause I almost could smell in the air that something big is about to happen..Maybe its sixth sense..Yup sorry to disappoint but I don't see dead people :P Maybe I should just chill and take a deep breath..Yeah..I think its working cause I just managed stop hyperventilating..

So delaila here signing off
Roger and out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wN9KNVe3l2Y

4 little details men notice about women

Read an interesting article online recently. So just to summarise it..These are the little details men notice about women

1) Hands
Reason: Beautiful hands can portray daintiness and strength at the same time. imagination will go on overdrive on what it's like to hold them.

2) Hair
Reason: Hair can do simple actions that can evoke powerful emotions.
When a gust of wind blew right down the street and ran through her hair, an indescribable motion that took place in her hair was beautiful.

3) Attitude towards others
Reason: A person with a beautiful personality treats everyone nicely and respectfully. It's fun to be out with a girl and watch her make people smile from afar. It makes me feel proud and lucky that I'm with her. It's already an amazing thing when I meet a girl that can brighten my days. But if this girl brightens everyone's days, then I'm even luckier.

4) What Does She Notice?
You can learn a lot about a person just by the details they notice in life and moments. It is a fun adventure going out with someone who can laugh at and notice little things, and who always brings new insights to different situations.

So guys do you agree?What other little things that you notice abt a girl?

Another magical weekend :)

I truly does not know what is going on lately and what's in the air these days..But I had an amazing Saturday..Yet again a day seem to be ordinary turn out to be totally different..I can't explain why this is happening and it is somewhat confusing to me..[But in a good way of course]

There's no words that could describe what I feel that day so I'm just going to say it with music ;)

Enjoy :)

"Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can
be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real
or just another crush?"

When a smile meant and worth more than a thousand compliments..

When a smile meant and is worth more than a thousand compliments..Yes, that is how I felt on Sunday, supposedly to be an ordinary day but ending up to be one of the special days that I'll remember for a very long time...

As soon as I stepped out of the elevator, there he was smiling at me as if I'm the most beautiful girl he had ever seen and he's glad that I'm with him(I don't know if it was my imagination but that was the feeling I got from that one simple smile). I got into his van and the 1st words he said was "You look so pretty today" and then looked away blushing as if he just realised that he had said those words aloud. And me still feeling the powerful blast of shock and joy from that one smile and those words stupidly said "Huh? where got?"[Yup silly Delaila at work again, maybe i'm juz being a little confused at what is going on then hehe]. So there it was the most perfect start to that special Sunday.

We had went out that day with the intention of me shopping around for my company D & D dress. I knew it's going to be a long day of going into different shops and trying many, many clothes and I know how much he hated shopping so I was prepared for a day of his complaining and me being annoyed at his complaints. But surprisingly, the absolute opposite happened. Each time I ask him how the dress looked on me, he would really look at me and answer instead of the usual "you look ok lah..just buy the dress and go". The shopping experience became more fun cause I did not feel the guilt and annoyance that I normally feel when I'm out shopping with him and with him involved in the shopping, I think I tried more clothes that I intended to cause he keeps giving me clothes to try. This is the 1st time I had so much fun shopping with him. Actually he told me that he is quite disappointed that I did not buy the dress of his choice which does not look like a 60's dress at all[the theme for my D & D].His choice of dress make me look more like a japanese doll[a top with a super short ballerina-like skirt]. I jokingly told him that the purpose of this shopping is to find a 60's style dress for my D & D not to find the dress of his fantasy hehe...He smiled and replied but it is not wrong to dream right and you look so cute in that dress. He even offered to buy that dress for me[which is again another 1st] but I declined as at time I was feeling really weird cause he's behaving totally out of character. I finally found the dress that I liked and it does resembled a 60's dress so I bought it.

After the shopping, we decided to buy a drink and sit somewhere to talk. We end up sitting at the cinema where they are showing the movies trailers and we had an interesting talk about James Bond ;)[Can't get into details here cause it will be way too long for this post]

After finishing our drink, I had to go to the restroom and when I came out of the restroom. He gave me a bag and told me that its for me[again he is behaving totally out of character, he have never bought me anything except on special occasion like aniversary or birthdays].

Stupidly again I asked:

Me: "What's this?"
Him: "Something for you"
Me: "Huh?What for?"
Him: "hmm I thought of you when I saw it so I decided to buy it for you"

Guess what he bought for me? A mug that have these words written on it "I'm not stubborn. My way is just better".[This is the argument that I'll always use when he tells me that I'm being stubborn]

Him: "So you like it?"
Me: "I don't know..ok lah"[Oh my god how stupid can I be]
Him(looking disappointed): "Oh okay"
Him:"Come let me carry your things"
Me:"Huh?"[I'm so shocked that I just let him carry my things and follow him with a dopey smile on my face. I can tell you truthfully that throughout my relationship with him, he had never ever offered to carry my things.]

He convinced me to watch a movie which I was relucted to watch but it actually turned out to be a good movie. And after the movie, as usual we had dinner and talked about the movie.[Which part I/he liked the best and have much impact on us etc..]

It was only when I had reached home, it started to sink in that something special had happened. That my ordinary sunday had turned extra-ordinary and that it is possible to fall for someone all over again.

And Guess what? I'm going to have this dopey smile on my face for this whole week and even longer I think even though its the 1st week of the month[My busiest time at work] cause nothing can beat the joy that I'm feeling right now. Just PURE BLISS :D



P/S: Sorry for the super long post and lots of details that might not interest you but I just felt I need to capture the feelings that I felt and have it written down so that I could read it again and again and feel like it happened just yesterday ;)

The important men in my life :)

Do you remember the time when we were younger hanging out with the girls and start dishing out our ideas on what our dream guy would be like. When I was younger, my idea with a dream guy was same as others I guess..the cute boy band type[At that time was pretty clueless on the tall, dark and handsome types]..Actually, at that time i have a pretty enormous crush on him..



My first love of coz definitely don't look anything like that person above.hehe..He's a chinese malay mix and guess where I met him..At a River Valley High Girl guides and scouts campfire..Yup, so very cliche..I know..But I guess sparks just flew between us across the campfire..He smiled and I smiled back and that's the start of a 3 year long relationship. I learned a lot from this relation and I can truly say I have never regretted it...in fact I should thank him(so Alfian if you happen to read this "thanks and you're the best 1st love anyone could ever have cause you completely made me realised wat relationship is all about and definitely made me into a better person" :D)

So anyways, of course most 1st love wouldn't last..we both out-grew with each other and wanted different things in our lives so we decided to move on.

After that I don't really want to be in a relationship and wanted to embrace my singlehood so I was single for most of the time while I was in ITE. And those times when I was attached, I wasn't really into it and I guess it does reflect, the relationship only last for a couple of months and I didn't even feel sad when it ended..I juz felt relieved hehe [Sorry to Mr whoever-you-are, I can't even remember your name and that is how insignificant you are to my life but thank you all the same cause you taught me the lesson that relationship are not like fairy tales sometime it just doesn't end with a happy ending].

After I had two relationships without a happy ending, I told myself that I should just left fate decide and stop hoping and searching for love. During this time, I'm not sure why but I just blossomed I guess..Guys started asking me out and I would go of course because it was a compliment to have guys ask you out but something was missing...I was so not having fun during the dates and the only fun I had was after it when I was dissecting the date and laughing about it with my best guy friend :)As it goes, this best guy friend of mine is like an enemy and a motivator all rolled up in one..Sometimes he tormented me so much that I seriously had thought of ways to hurt him badly and sometimes I feel like he is the only person in the whole wide world that understands and accepts me exactly the way that I am. He's the only person who could understand the way that I'm feeling without me talking about it and at times, we could even complete each other sentences..Yup I know cliche again but its true :)

At that time, I did think that maybe this is the guy that fate had brought to me but both of us were absolute polar opposite so I convinced myself that he could not possibly the one. WE remained best of friends till we had to work together 24/7 on our final year project...That is the period that really sucks..We fought all the time and could not really agree on anything, it magnified the fact that both of us are truly 2 completely different people..There is still this one time I still remember how angry he was at over a mistake I made and I remembered feeling that I was not being appreciated..And he had the dubious title of the only guy that made me cry. That I is when I realise that actually I really cared about him more than a friend, no other guy had ever made me cry before cause if u know me well, I hate to cry..I will never cry over a guy unless I truly cared about him.

And the rest as they say is history, this fairy tale has not yet reached its ending but i sure hope it will be a happily ever after ;)

One of the movies that you need to watch in your lifetime: THE NOTEBOOK

The movie "The Notebook" really had leave a deep impression on me. Although most people would classify this movie as a tear-jerker but for me, not a single tear rolled down my cheeks. Cause this movie made me feel joy not sadness. It made me feel that true love still exist in this selfish, selfish reality and that one day maybe one day the love that Noah had for Allie will happen to me :) You see I'm a little sceptical about love. I don't really believe in forever[which is kinda sad] but this movie gives me hope that love will truly grow with time and it won't fade away into obligation.

As always, my "fren" will say these things only happen in movies, books and fairy tales and he don't understand why girls always fall for the same tricks again and again. I told him that I know these things won't really happen in real life[girls are really not that dumb] but at least it gives me the reason to dream and that is enough for me ;)



P/S: Don't you think that Ryan Gosling look so much like Fernando Torres..[Cue in *SIGH*]

Obsessive addiction part 2

I watched Grey's anatomy yesterday and this quote from Meredith completely hit the nail in the head[Hehe you know what I mean rite..(For those u doesn't, it's a metaphor)].Check my previous post if you want to know more.

"In the hospital, we see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away."

- Meredith Grey

The worst thing that you can get addicted to is "L.O.V.E". I feel that sometimes addiction comes so naturally to us that we don't even know that we are addicted until we are forced to go "cold turkey".

And to continue the Theme of addiction..Below is the song "Addicted" from simple plan for your enjoyment :)

Countdown to my favourite Hari Raya songs

Hi Everyone..Seeing that there's almost about 1 week left to Hari Raya, I decided to do a countdown to my fave hari raya songs and also to drum up the excitement for Raya(which is getting harder each year cause I'm no longer getting the zakat but instead I have to give it out hehe..I guess it is a good thing that I'm giving zakat and combined with my steadfast fasting so at least maybe some of my sins will be forgiven :P)

So here are my top 5 songs for RAYA!!

Song at no. 5
SELOKA HARI RAYA..

This song reminded me of the time where I had to participate my school Hari Raya celebration with my malay language classmates. Needless to say it went horribly wrong cause none of us could dance the traditional malay dance but we did it anyway to have fun and just for memories sake.(If I'm not wrong, it was our last year in Secondary school). The dance was made up of 6 couples and at one point of the dance, each couple was to separate and to form 2 lines consisting of all girls and guys. But I think my partner didn't get that memo and when we start to separate out, my partner decided to follow me looking absolutely clueless..I had to point him to the right direction while making it look like it was part of the dance(I don't think I succeeded cause the whole place was laughing by then). But luckily, my partner reacted and quickly join his line. I did the whole dance giggling cause I don't know why but I find the whole situation very hilarious. It is safe to say that is end of my "short" career as a malay dancer hehe ;) but because of that event, this song never fail to make me smile.



Song no. 4
BALIK KAMPUNG

Hehe even though I don't really have a kampung to go back to during Raya. But I just love the chorus of this song. Yet again a song that everyone knows especially the chorus..All together now "Balik kampung..ooohh..balik kampung"



Song no. 3
AIR MATA SYAWAL

This songs always reminds me that Hari Raya is not only about celebrating that we have done the fasting for 1 month but it is also about remembering those who have left us or those who are far away from us.



Song no. 2

SUASANA HARI RAYA

This song by Anuar Zain and ellina is one of my favourite raya song simply because everyone knows this song. Me, my sisters and my cousins will be singing this song in the back seat when we used to go out visiting our relatives together in my uncle's van and sometimes the adults will join in as well. Hehe we especially love the part
" Asyik bersembang pakcik dan makcik, hai duit raya lupa nak diberi" Bring back plenty of good memories :)



Song no. 1

SATU HARI DI HARI RAYA

My favourite song of all time for Raya. This song never fails to make me feel the spirit of Raya. Love to play this song especially when baking cookies. To me this song encapsulate(wow, such a big word) what Hari Raya is all about. K lah enough of me yapping here..Just click play and enjoy the song ;)